PACIFYING THIS HUNGER... .

2011-07-28T04:59:00.000-07:00

YES..ITS JUST SO SAD THAT A CERTAIN PRINCIPLE MUST COME TO AN END.
ITS BEEN 10YEARS AND IVE REALLY TRIED TO HOLD ON. IVE TRIED...SO HARD. IDID!

IF YOU QUESTION MY STRENGTH?
WELL.. GO AHEAD! I'LL JUST TEND TO KEEP SILENT, FOR I MYSELF..DONT WANT TO TALK
AND DISCUSS THINGS LIKE THAT.

AND IF YOU WILL KEEP ON PUSHING ME TO TALK AND EXPLAIN WHAT HAPPENNED...
IL JUST TELL YOU THIS LINE... THAT I WILL KEEP ON UTTERING UNTIL MY LAST BREATH.

I AM ONLY HUMAN!

IM BAAAACK!!!!! :)

2010-10-06T18:06:00.000-07:00

pLease visit me here..

http://obraenkantada.tumblr.com/

salamat sa pagbisita!!!! :)

WHEW!! IM BAAAACK!! :)

2010-09-26T19:38:00.000-07:00

oh weLL..its been Months since ive last visited mySite. I am changing 'tho. Someone referred me to TUMBLER, its just that I am looking for a day where i could export myblogs, update all of those, and do nothing but bLogging.hehehe :)

hope i could find the DAY that i am talking about so i could have another updated site. i missed blogging..its like talking and sharing thought to a friend!Lots of things happened and im so excited to put all those on my new blogsite!My new baby! :)

ok..this would be my last blog for this site! :)
i'll be on a state of hibernation for months.. i guess,too! :)

Thanks for visiting and reading non-sense-thoughts of mine. At least, Ive stealed minutes of your time..and i am thankful!
bye for now! :)

SONA ni P.NOY

2010-07-26T13:51:00.000-07:00

just wanna share myFave part on his first ever SONA, 3weeks after his inaugauration. :)

Tungkulin po ng bawat Pilipino na tutukan ang mga pinunong tayo rin naman ang nagluklok sa puwesto. Humakbang mula sa pakikialam tungo sa pakikilahok. Dahil ang nakikialam, walang-hanggan ang reklamo. Ang nakikilahok, nakikibahagi sa solusyon.

Napakatagal na pong namamayani ang pananaw na ang susi sa asenso ay ang intindihin ang sarili kaysa intindihin ang kapwa. Malinaw po sa akin: paano tayo aasenso habang nilalamangan ang kapwa?

Ang hindi nabigyan ng pagkakataong mag-aral, paanong makakakuha ng trabaho? Kung walang trabaho, paanong magiging konsumer? Paanong mag-iimpok sa bangko?

Ngunit kung babaliktarin natin ang pananaw—kung iisipin nating “Dadagdagan ko ang kakayahan ng aking kapwa”—magbubunga po ito, at ang lahat ay magkakaroon ng pagkakataon.

Maganda na po ang nasimulan natin. At mas lalong maganda po ang mararating natin. Ngunit huwag nating kalimutan na mayroong mga nagnanasang hindi tayo magtagumpay. Dahil kapag hindi tayo nagtagumpay, makakabalik na naman sila sa kapangyarihan, at sa pagsasamantala sa taumbayan.

Akin pong paniwala na Diyos at taumbayan ang nagdala sa ating kinalalagyan ngayon. Habang nakatutok tayo sa kapakanan ng ating kapwa, bendisyon at patnubay ay tiyak na maaasahan natin sa Poong Maykapal. At kapag nanalig tayo na ang kasangga natin ay ang Diyos, mayroon ba tayong hindi kakayanin?

Ang mandato nating nakuha sa huling eleksyon ay patunay na umaasa pa rin ang Pilipino sa pagbabago. Iba na talaga ang situwasyon. Puwede na muling mangarap. Tayo nang tumungo sa katuparan ng ating mga pinangarap.

Maraming salamat po.

Aftermath ni Typhoon Basyang!

2010-07-17T21:36:00.001-07:00

► sigh! dameng kaLat! It didnt looks like a ComfortZone anymore! walis..walis!

► Here's the saddest part.. punong Alatiris yan..super naging routine kong kumuha everyday ng mga bunga ng alatiris after work. Unexpected na puno yan..nasa paso lng cya tas lumaki na ..tas napakinabangan ko pa..tas..ayan putol na! =(

hehe..eto ..along bacao area..nilakad lng namen..dahil sa nakaharang na TrailerTruck na ito! kakatuwa..ironically,ive enjoyed walking along with ynah and other opismeyts..dame den nglalakad! =)

♫ ♫ ♫ unsched gig?

2010-07-13T08:53:00.000-07:00

Oh Yeah..OrayT! ♪ ♫ On whatever date it wouLd be..I wiLL go. I'll file my WorkLeave anyway..just keep me updated ahead and just in case...just in case..it'll accidentally fall on a workweek ..i will..ahmmm...ahmm...be absent, i guess.. :)

BaLiteFalls with FamiLy!

2010-07-11T17:53:00.000-07:00

► ahmm,my first attached Video on this blogsite. Just wanna share our pics here. :)

She just says... she's aLright! =)

2010-07-08T12:09:00.000-07:00

A sTory to teLL...
Forbidden it may seem, but she really assure herseLf that she did it by choice.

That made her happy, 'tho!

Late 2008 was never a hum-drum days for her. It became the most chaotic and unanticipated. I couLd describe her as a Reserve type and an easy-go-lucky woman. She have never open up things that easily . She really believes on herself's capabilities and hated helpless people around. I could say, she's been into unsuccesfull relationships that made her stick and stuck on her belief(s) about Love. She got suitors but then, ditching off some of them. She just love flirting! WeLL, that's her game. She never fall in love easily and got Boyfriends around. (emphasize on the word ''friend'')

When she was on her SecondaryYear in schooL, she've got collections of a not-so-happy-ending pocketbooks where she have read about OpenRelationships. The status that she have looked forward to experience and expLore, until 2008 came...

She fell in love to a college friend. She've never acknowledged the feeling until they went out on an out-of-town trip aLone. Yeah, what can you expect on that getaway ..alone?! Of course...intimacy. They did ''that'' thing that made her fell on the ''trap''. She've called it a trap since she didnt mean to fell. ( i will not tell the story of the guy since i dont know him even met.. just storytelling the emotion of this woman=) ). They're so happy back then, as if they're the only couple living. They've cuddled,shared each others stories,interests,confessions.Its indeed a Freedom! They've became more than what they have with each other.

Yes,she admitted that going out with him was a mutual plan but she've reiterated words to him that they would leave anything that happened on that vacation.

Silence surrounded their trip on a bus going back on their hometown. They've pLayed MindReading, entertaining expectations,hunches and negative echoes on their mind...

She was so confident and certain that she wont fall.

Just 5hours have passed after stepping off from that bus they've rode on, a feeling of emptiness was felt. She wont fall,she have said...

She was in Denial.

to be continued...

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CameraObscura VS. TrashcanSinatras

2010-07-07T15:00:00.001-07:00

I've senT a private message to Clem Castro, and ask if its possibLe to bring TheClientele here by their IndieProductionLabel, Lilystars REcords. He have responded uncertain answers and doesnt even heard about the band that am talking about. He have stated that its not the next foreign artist that would come over soon and told me that i'll just wait for announcements because they're still also waiting for Confirmation .Then...he Logged out! =/

So, ive thought of the next person that is reliable with whom i could fetch some answers...and TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! Fortunately there he was!!! Monch CristobaL was onLine! and his band would have their released single and album ..soon! Galing galing nina bro at sis!!! hweeeeeeeeeee...♫ ♪ ♫

♣ just click the Image to view and read it cLear ♣

Am so excited..If its Camera0bscura,however,if its TrashcanSinatras, well then...i wont go. =)

Me ♥ NoyNoy !

2010-07-02T15:02:00.001-07:00

OhMyGawd! Crush ko si NoynoY! =)

Ive felt this thing last two weeks when ive seen NoyNOy's video while smoking on a News Coverage on a certain LocalStation. It's all about him,quitting smoking.Oh Yeah, it's a sort-of a Blast and my heart beats intensely so fasT! Funny,right?! Ive never thought of NoyNoy's physical features until ive set my eyes on that Coverage. Ahmm ...no! It's really about him with a stick of cigarette. My eyes dictate his stance fits the habit! ♥♥♥

Oh,well... not the habit itself. It's his 'looks' with that cigarette!That 'thing' on his hand makes me think that he's not a weak man. It symbolizes ''manhood and strength'' for me.So apparently, I've initiaLLy thought of him as a weak and sluggish type. (..and am talkign about his Physical Attributes here, not his overall Personality).

Na Associate ko cya kina Lourd de Veyra, and other Literature Writer/Artist who smokes. La lang ma-blog lang at mailagay sa CAtegory na ''About Love''...itigil ko na itong kaimmature-an ko na itech! Poof! =)

FreeLance Writing Jobs =)

2010-07-01T15:16:00.000-07:00

someone Tweet me about Earning Online..i havent read it yet, but here's the link. You might find this interesting ..just sharing this SourceOfIncome.

♣ note :: before claiming this opportunity and do the job, do a research if they're paying or if it has a good background of Paying those who Writes for them. I'll do mine..later. =)

An EmaiL from A stranger =)

2010-07-01T12:13:00.001-07:00

► goT an email yesterday from a stranger and named herself as LightVehicLe on FaceBook.
When ive checked her FB account, ive found out that we've got a common friend named JohnCreighton. Yes, i remember now, this 50yearoLd man added me on FB not knowing where and how did he know myemail add. One thing, he likes CarL Jung,too!
►yesterday morning, he posted a Quote about Anima/animus, a Psych Theory from CarlJung that made me Like the status and clicked it on his FB account. He have responded right away and responded on him ,too. Only 30mins have passed when ive noticed that the whoLe conversation was deleted. Then right after, an email from this woman received. I've initially thought that this was a Scam Mail in FB but i've patiently read and understand what she's trying to say...=)
►yes,ms.Stranger. Honestly, i really dont know what you're saying, but i Understand what you've been trying to Express. If that's his game , the hell i care! I dont easiLy fall on any trap like that for ''i know'' that kind of Game, it's not Unusual anyway =)
► Mr John Creighton, is a deep man in a sense that, he really dwell on his inner personality and that's what i like and made me decided to put him on my featured list of friends in myFB account! Ive just noticed that his original account was deleted last month and after a few days, he have added mo again. I really ahvent experience his game yet but sometimes, i really dont know those Psyche stuffs he have posted.

That oLd man tickles my idle mind...and maybe, that's his game!=)

ALELI VIDA on GoogLe search Tab

2010-06-17T16:51:00.000-07:00

I already have 15mins left,before i get off from here,so to waste my idLe time, i've typed myname on Google tab search,nothing important at all, just wanna see what are the links that would appear in relation with it.=)

So, aside on my personal web accounts, these links above populates.

Yun lng.. kakatuwa! 8:00am na..i am leaving na...poof! =)

Im with these Musicians!! ohmygawd! =)

2010-06-05T23:26:00.000-07:00

ItchyWorms! This is the most recent, taken last thursday in Palawan airport.
Kahiyaan na..ive still insisted! hahahahaha=)

I am just a photographer here. Mysister had pics with clem castro of CAmerawalls (previously lead guitarist of OrangeandLemons)and since the event was just held in SM bacoor, shyness creeps on me and became paranoid that someone would see me doing this,because of that, i wasnt able to take any pic with the band. hehe..

This was taken during PANORAMA music festival in PICC,project of graduating masscom students of st.benilde. Got a chance with Joey Ayala by attending the seminar where he was the facilitator and experienced playing some indigenous instruments like what you're seeing on this pic. Well, ive danced too! I did some steps of culturaldance with him guiding me along ..hahaha! I remember he'd told me ''Alam mo, familiar ka...parang nagkita na tayo! '' , ive felt relatively closeness with him hearing those words! sigh! =)

..ser Noy of pinikpikan and now , playing with Bahaghari.

Govinda of KAdangyan. Such a long story how ive got a chance to be with this humbLe guy and befriended him for such a short span of time. Im not saying that it ends there, he still recognize me . He stiLL knows me by name but i dont get a chance right now to see him on any Event and gig. Busy na din eh. Di na ko makanuod ng gig. Mabaet cya..yun lng! Hope to see him around..again!=)

LoudDeVeyra of RadioactiveSago. Taken during FetedelaMusique,2008 in Malate.While walking and transferring from one Stage to another, I've caught him eating fishballs on the streets. So, given that chance. I didnt waste it! =)

PePe Smith on Arts and Music Fest in MegatradeHall. We've just seen him in the corner drinking wine. He really looks so Old, pero walang kupas! Rock On! hahaha =)
Eto lang , i didnt get a chance to take a few shots of Wally Gonzales and some artists, who were beside me during that event. Bigla n naman akong nadyahe eh! hehe=)

Alright...just a few Pics of myFave musicians.Ive lost some of treasured pics, and that made me sad until now! Pics with my crushes like FrancisBrewReyes of TheDawn and BhavaMitra of Kadangyan. Ahmmm...better luck nexttime! ;)

i Like his sTyLe! ♥

2010-05-28T16:48:00.000-07:00

Yeah man! the last time ive seen him performing was 2008 during FetedelaMusique in Malate..they're so funny eh!! subrang kakatuwa! ayan..nablog tuloy. =)

Oh dear..i think im inloooove again! =)

► got these pics thru his Facebook Account =) ♥

♣ BiTs N PieCes ♣

2010-05-18T16:14:00.000-07:00

AKO MISMO! oo ako nga! =)

2010-05-18T12:26:00.000-07:00

I am not a registered voter..oops! i am pala! ive registerd last campaign,yung batch nina Fernando Poe. Ive registered for some reasons. Pero wala sa loob kong bumoto. Kung anu man ang nangyare sa registered name ko, gamitin man nila sa pandadaya, wala nkong pakielam.Wala tlg..until now. Sadyang Passive. =)

"Gaga! bat dka bboto! Its Right Of Suffrage! Sayang ang boto mo..blah blah blah.."
uy kung maka-gaga ka naman..hehehe =))

Oh well..teka po..paki spell at pkitagalog ung S-U-F-F-R-A-G-E? Hwoooosh..yung totoo lang..cge na yun totoo???Yung iba ginagamet eto, di nmn alm meaning!Aminin! Mabago lng ang termino, malalim kase,mganda sa pandinig eh. Bat bko nangingielam?! Eh kase nmn..as far as i know having that Right of Suffrage, means i am free and could choose not to vote too. Sakop iyon ng Right na iyan na nabanggit.

Anu bang repercussions ng di ko pagboto ngyon?

Di nman kase ako mapolitikang tao, kahit ang mga magulang ko eh updated sa mga bagaybagay na yan..palibhasa'y nagttrabaho sa gobyerno, kahit sa anung aspeto , di ako mapulitika. hehehe. Namumuha'y ako ng naayon sa available resources.AT minsa'y hindi na nghahangad ng iba. =)
Sabe..wala daw akogn karapatang magreklamo sa loob ng anim na taon dahil di ako bumoto. OO NAMAN! di ako mgrereklamo, di nyo ko matatagpuan sa kalsadang mgwewelga o mghhungerstrike at sasabihing ''ITAAS ANG SWELDO'' o "IBABA ANG BUWIS". Hindi tlg..at lalong hindi ako mghahangad ng mataas na sweldo kase mas mataas ang sweLdo, mas mataas ang buwis! Magiging mabuting mamamayan muna ako sa paraang alm ko.

Pero eto lng ...AKO MISMO sa ssunod na eleksyon, boboto ng mainam! Ayoko lng tlg nitong lumipas na election. Di ko feel. Dumami ang pasikat. Kase bago ang sistema.At hindi ko din nmn nasubaybayan yung mga tumakbong kandidato. Wala tlg akong alm..nkinig lmang ako ng mga debate..pero di un sapat para saken!

hehe..ang totoo am just defending myself, against my other self and answer the question why i did not participate on the last election. Tipong nagrationalize n nmn ako..hehe. HuweLL..That's my fave defense mechanism!

O yun lng..na petiks n nmn ako sa work. Tapos an nag lunchbreak ko..O cya work mode ulit .=)

Out of Boredom

2010-05-17T13:15:00.000-07:00

...well, this World is not mine. Not even my possesion. My only possesion is this FreeWill that ive treasured. The freedom to do things ive like to do. To live freely without inhibitions. Its just so sad to think that, i cant choose someone to stay. I just let them ..letting them to be here and knock on my being. I cant just easily pick those people i like and let them stay because they have their own freewill too! Yeah, I understand that we need to let go someone we've never owned. But how come that i've get so attached, and later on, ive let myself suffer!?

Aarrgh..i know am the culprit of all these Pain. So why am i so anxious?
Ah ,yeah ..bLame it to all those hormones and neurons on my system. They've made me feel this way. I shouldnt have to?! But they did..=/

So all i have to do is to 'go with the flow', and dance with the rule of nature,that someone will come along and, might not stay simpLy because they dont like to. Its been a cliche 'tho. A rule and reality! Just like that every thing has a Cause and has an equal Effect.

Ahmm..what shouLd i do? Acceptance..accepTance,i guess...that will keep me sane.

BeaTLes and SesameStreet =)

2010-05-02T20:24:00.000-07:00

The BeatLes , The Long and Winding ROad ALbum Package

and now, the newer package ...

Sunny Day..♪ ♫ ♪
Sweepin' the clouds away
On my way to where the air is sweet ♪ ♫

Can you tell me how to get,
How to get to Sesame Street!!! ♫ ♪

iT's aLL abouT bLood

2010-04-28T21:56:00.001-07:00

Weee..alas! I Am having again my Card back!! The last time ive donated was last quarter of 2008 and stopped there since ive been consistently goT Low bloodpressure, had my Rootcanaloperation and been busy as well , until this day came. Actually, ive been initially rejected for attempting again because of having 100/70 bp that made the doctor posponed my donation, and considered as Low BP. But of course, it didnt stop me from going there and went back after a week of preparation. I slept well.took my FerrousSulfate tablets and vitC. Did n0t go Laboy anywhere...just took a Rest on weekends.

What made me decide and made me so interested on blooddonation? WeLL...its really for the REDCROSSCARD ,that ive really yearned. Parang Fulfilling kase if i have it. .actually un lang tlg until a friend needed that CArd. ITs really not her,but her mom...and that pushed me na i-career ang blood donation.Imagine 1bag will cost you 2500php on any private hospital and only 1500php if you'll buy it on any RedCross Office? Ang Mahal!hehe=)

WEll..That isn't just a Card... Na hindi lng papel na pinirmahan..marameng bagay! Of course, i knew the value of it..pero nito na lng nag sink in at naabsorbed ng bongggang bongga. Last year lng ..Ung tipong may realization after someone benefited from it and you wont really give significance and value to a certain event,person or a thing until there come a time and instances that you'll need it. hehe=)

SO BECAUSE I WAS SO EXCITED.. I TOOK SOME PICS FROM MYPHONE..HEHE..ANSAYA SAYA!=)

Ung Syringe has the same size ng Straw ng Zesto. =)

Ms. Sally of REDCROSS, PN Cavite Branch=)

Ms.Sally : Sorry ha..walang Aircon, di pa kinakabit. Ang init init nga eh!=)

Hweeeeeeeee..almost Full! konti pa! dugooo!!! =))

VoluntaryBloodDonation wiLL really boost your sense of being, if you really have a sense of it! hehehehe..ung tipong pag bored ka. Remedy cya in a way. Basta masaya ugn feeling..psychologically and spiritually it wiLL change you! =)

REDCROSS Office : PN Cavite Branch / CONTACT no: (046)4310562 and look for ms.sally

s h a d e s !

2010-04-23T08:27:00.000-07:00

Where can i buy a not-so-costly shades like this? Anyone?! JannoGibbs wore the same on TV. My budget is up to 350php-500php only. Ive seen exactly the same style in Ray-ban, unfortunately, i cant afford such cost! Ahmmm..il try to look over to an UkayUkay Shop. Baka makatyempo! hehe =)

IsLandCove

2010-04-15T16:44:00.001-07:00

Nolin : Outing tyo!
Dennis : Tara swimming tyo...
LeLaY : cge ba..basta balitaan nyo nyo nlng ako..sat-sun off ko.
after few days...
Juan : tuloy ba swimming sa linggo
LeLaY : san?san?
Juan : IslandCOve , si nolin daw mgpplano. Si mac text mo den. Nka Unli ako eh.
NOlin : cge samen nlng sa linggo tas samen n den tyo kumaen.
LeLaY : kaw na mgtxt..dali na..
JUan : nu ba yan ako na nga ngpaalala..ako pa mgttxt?hehe
LeLaY : sus..cge na nga..
Mac: sinu ba nagset ng swimming ha? may shift ako sa linggo eh..d2 na lng sa Watercamp!!
LeLaY : ok ask ko sila..biglaan den kase..si dens alis na den sa tuesday.

SUnday Afternoon:
Juan :diba nka swimming attire tlg dun?
LeLaY : ewan ko d2 ke nolin. pde daw shirts and shorts lgn eh
Nolin : oo lelay dapat nka swimmign attire dun.eheheheh=)
LeLay : ma-llate ako ng dating..wait ko pa ung camera..aga nmn kase 2pm. mga 4pm ako dadating =)
Juan : knino mo intayin? bilisan mo ha..magpapaitim kme!
Nolin : naaay boring nmn..hmp, kakatamad magswimming.hehehe..tambay nlng tyu!

3:30pm :
noLin : wait! di tayo sabay sabay pumunta dun?
Juan : san kna?
LeLaY : oo una na kyo ..tagal ng kapatid ko eh..
Dennis : sabay kame ni juan

5pm:
LeLay: san n kyo?
JUan : d2 na kme..sa malapit sa kiddie pool !
Mac : natuloy b kayo?
LeLaY : oo mac eh natuloy kme..hehe =)

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! ang mahal ng entrance! 275 day swimming. Food is not allowed! sus me! Pizza, chichirya at coke in can lng bitbit nmen for 5hours of swimming..keri na den! bonding na den! hehehe;)

TARA ! UWIAN NA! KINA NOLIN NLNG TYO TAMBAY AT KUMAEN NG MADAMENG MADAME! HEHEHE=)
more pics here : ISLANDCOVE

DampaLitan IsLand (QueZon)

2010-04-11T20:54:00.000-07:00

►►►►..so there after Borawan we drove the banca off to Dampalitan Island. An Island where there are Pinetrees and white sand, i could say, the ambiance is similar to Anawangin Island in Zambales, except for the fact that, there's no River or fresh water flowing towards the sea and the beach area is more shallow compared to the beach in Anawangin. But, the PineTRees and the breeze itself tells the similarities between the two. Serenity and Solidarity. =)

We've spent the rest of the day chatting, talking about the Tsunami Alert we've received before Noon. So there's the ''what if's..'' and ''what would happen then..'' questions surrounds are worried mind. N0!!! we're not bothered,even worried! (in-deniaL)
So after lunch, we've decided to enjoy the sea and just brushed aside the news, that even the Bangkero, did not believed in! hehe..so there we go, all we did was..went to BALSA and regressed from being a Kid again then played ROLE PLAYING. WeLL, Harries led us to this drama as The CAptain, RJ, TL, and Trax acted as The Propeller ( actually, they've just keep on pushing the BaLsa off to the shore and the rest of us acted as if we're HuckFinn and Tom Sauyer welcoming their adventures on the Sea,not to mention the fact that, the sea was just on knee-level ) Funny 'tho! I've really had a great time there!!! I've experienced again playing just like when i was young..sigh! Tawa ako ng tawa nito! =)

ANG PIGING!!=)

MyMoment Alone! yun o! pitsur pitsur! =)

ahmmmm...si RJ may ''moment alone'' din! =)

HERE'S OUR DRAMA! =))

ORAYT..OUR DAY HAS BEEN ENDED!

Borawan IsLand (Quezon)

2010-04-07T13:17:00.000-07:00

i did not anticipated this kind of Paradise in Quezon Area, thanks to Harries who's reciding there and accomodated us during our Stay on his place. It was great and we've only took almost 1,500 from our pocket for that Overnight stay plus a Tour on Two Islands!

It was an OvernightStay with my Officemates and the variation of personalities among us blended perfectly for that get-away! (its really not that easy to find Companion and had a get-away,where you could say that ''I've had a Great Time!', sometimes, and it really happens that, although, you were set on a vacation stay on a Luscious Island, your Mate might or could spoil the vacation just because of clashing everyones' atittude, so its really a Plus to choose your Companion if you really wanna have a Nice and Stress-free VeyKeyShun! hehe)

so..here it goes..am sharing pics ive collected! Masaya although we've received and warned to get-off, because Tsunami alert was given by PAGASA/PHIVOLCS, yet we chose to stay! So be It..Patay kung Patay! =)

♦ THEY'VE CALLED THIS ''BUTETE'or BUFFER FISH, CUTE! nasa Shore lng cya..=)

♠ ANOTHER ONE..JELLyFISH! GOTCHA! SWIMMING AROUND THE SHORE! ;)

☻ IT LOOKS LIKE AN EFFORT EXERTED FOR THAT HUGE ROCK! THAT'S WHAT WE'VE CALLED ''TEAMWORK''..(tenchu Myra, ive almost forgot the Word, i am having this Tip Of The Tounge Theory..Lusot!) hahahaha

► THE NAME OF THIS ISLAND DERIVED FROM BORACAY-PALAWAN! well...lemme see till i get to Bora and Palawan..=)

..and if you like Camping and some rock formations! this is the right place to go! =)

☼ IM COMING!!!! este WE'RE COMIIING!!!! HWOHOooOOO!!! =)

☻ YUN O! SOULMATES KO! ♥ ♥ ♥

♣ NICE..NICE~~anD NOW WE'RE HEADING TO OUR NEXT DESTINATION..DAMPALITAN ISLAND!

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♠ Another Illustration ♠

2010-04-07T13:08:00.000-07:00

...what if?
well, then..so be it!

JUST MOVE ON...and do not fail to say THANK YOU, and acknowledge the Learning(s), that's if.. there really is!hehehe ;)

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whoever he is , thanks for some Music

☻•Ynah's Tumbler•☻

2010-03-29T08:31:00.000-07:00

•Ynah made this entry on her Tumbler site.☻ i guess,,out of boredom she have created this whiLe Working...and..out of mymind, my first impression after reading it was, a blog that sounds Eulogy for me! Parang ngbbye na di nako mkkita..hehe..kakaiba ang feeling ..que horror ☻
( i would never be that far..eto lang o..isang cubicle division lang ang distance..hehe)

•Ynah is my current buddy sa office, a Shuttle Buddy. she made me experienced to climbed again another mountain, and that was in Taal,Batangas and still looking forward on another climb.☻

• what i like on her most, is her views in life. She, being optimistic in some way. Candid and jolly , too. ☻

• she's the Eldest, and a responsible Ate and Anak. Sportsminded.☻ and i am not! ☻

• The fact that she's the eldest was another realization on my part, majority of my friends / acquaintance were the Eldest in the family, and most are female.I dont know, maybe some manifest the domineering figure while i ve got the submissive atitude. It complements. ☻

• she really knew how to get along..just dont go against her way, at talagang tatamaan ka. hehehe. weLL..that's Ynah!

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♦ Just an iLLustration ♦

2010-03-25T08:21:00.000-07:00

Just sharing this Illustration where you couLd recognize the details behind,and it demonstrates Emotions. Those Boxes tell the story itself without typing any words... GaLing!

sometimes it's really how you show off yourself without saying anything,they might discern and make some conclusion but no judgement should be made.

Ang Larawan ay nakaw sa kanyang SITE..and am still reading . =)

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R I P -Butotoy November 1999 - MArch 22, 2010 =(

2010-03-22T09:19:00.000-07:00

...our dearest Butotoy is now signing Off..=(

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♣ cAMeRa sHoT ♣

2010-03-12T08:27:00.000-08:00

..just want to share these pics ive took in one of those placeS in Pagudpud, Ilocos Norte. Too late ive realized that this place is usual when you key-in PAGUDPUD , in SearchTab and browse some pics of beautiful places there. It just that when our 2nights and 3days vacation were over, we've dropped by on a certain Pasalubong Shop and found a keychain that has the exact place ive had above. Actually ive had browseD 2 travelersite (ive forgot the link!)and found the same thing.. Siyempre, nagulat ako..kakatuwa lng! =)

♥ thanks, Gem! ♪ ♥ ♫

2010-03-10T09:56:00.000-08:00

funny! but its a habit..ive been browsing his site not everyday, but very usuaL! he's a cure on a certain nostalgia,sometimes..boredom. hmmm...ive got a hunch that i will be able to see this person..sa gig!pareho kme ng music,di malayong mangyare..dko lam kung san..basta..pag napadpad ulit ako ng manila/quezon area, madali na yun!see him around!=)

shopNcheck

2010-03-03T11:11:00.000-08:00

☻ i've already earned 1,400php on my first batch of shopping. My initial assignements was Three-times in MCDO, somewhere here in Cavite and now, just finished shopping 3x again in Jollibee. You will received payment a month after you've completed those assignments. Ive informed Ms.Badette of ShopNcheck that i am looking for more assignments because i am enjoying it as well.
♣well..how did i know this so called ''sideline''? Ive knew this thru Jonamae, actually she was the first one who got email from them and was about to sent it back, but due to typhoon ondoy, she've failed doing so. ahmm..the last time ive asked her is that , she have decided not to pursue.
◘ ..and how much per shop? ive got paid only with a certain fast food shop, and it cost 315php per shop,or per visit, but according to Ms Cez and Badette of ShopNcheck, it really depends on your account or assignments. Anyways, the food will be reimburse of course, except for the fare. Umaalma pa nga ko eh kase sabe dati, 500 per shop daw..hehehe =)
☺ ah yes..am i enjoying this? definitely yes! so if you're not the type who could go out and eat alone on a certain fast food chain..well, dont go with this.You might really find it boring..=)
(ahmm...i havent received yet any assignments that requires me to buy clothes or any gadgets , but i've read some Blogs online that they did.)
♠ you can visit ShopNcheck website , here , if you're doubtful, you can ask my friend Google for some search.and if you're interested, you can send you're email here : snc@johnclements.com .If your resume got screened,they will email you back with assignments and surveyform to answer after a shop.

CAMERAWALLS in SM BACOOR

2010-02-21T16:59:00.000-08:00

yeah right, its been a long-time plan to watch them live playing on a certain bar somewhere in QC but i find it hard doing so, i work at night and i am not that too familiar on those Bars anywhere in Manila and QC area.
until ive heard that Camerawalls will be here in CAvite, and guess what? they will be here in SM bAcoor lang.Palagpasin ko pa ba? sus me! Just a one-bus-ride away from our town so, without thinking twice...i was there!!! ofcouse!!hweeeeeeeeeeee=)

its an event of JAM88.3 and DSL having them as the guest band. T'was really great!! The sound and the performance itself was very satisfying! there'wasn't much of a crowd watching..and that's what i like ..so i could breathe and enjoy the music plus the coffee i was drinking was good!!Arrrgh..perfect! mesmerizing and hypnotic!=)

(yun nga lang..my moves were suppressed..i was dancing in my mind..i cant dance..hahaha)

Its not myfirsttime seeing them performing but Its my firsttime watching the band with Paolo of Turbo goth as their newest member/guitarist. He's good. He fits in the band. He's music added spice on the poppish side of thecamerawalls. Nagkaron ng Electronica side ang Camerawalls! =)

anyways, Camerawalls is a four-piece band spearheaded by Clem deCastro, a former guitarist of the now-defunct OrangeAndLemons..and i really ..realy admire him sooooo much! =)

i hesitated on taking out my camera and turning it on..nahiya ako bigla! Someone might seen me doing this..kilig and taking pics. hehehe.So what?!i did not even bother, until someone poked me..and say..''hi lelay, anung ginagawa mo dyn?" hahahaha..a co-employee,,,gotcha!!!Huli ako! hahahaha=)

Yes, Clementine!=)

PaoLo of Turbotgoth with Sara Gaugler, his wifey.

Yeah..MarkersOfBeautifulMemories! hweeeeeeeee...kilig!

JohnLennon!!! hwaaaaa..i love your shades!! =)

MySister and i... was...just..a photographer! Dyahe eh! =)

Pao convincing mysister to have a tattoo..promoting their business, her wife is also a tattoo artist. Very Artistic couple..She's doing a nice skin artwork=)

ALRIGHT! an hour have passed! and we've still seen them around.
Sigh! My mindset after their slot was...''i need another gig. i should plan this as early as possible ..i should!NAbitin ako!"

when i got home..ive received an FB message from Antonette Maniquis, thanking and acknowledging our presence on the gig. Maybe its because i left a message on their FAcebookWall. They're so nice! dko inexpect. .hehe. Sayang . . i wont be there on their newest single launching. QC na nman kase..haaaay. SO many gigs ive missed.. again..maybe nexttime..there will be another day for that! hehehehe ..HARINAWA! =)

Phenomenal Woman by Maya Angelou

2010-02-18T11:18:00.000-08:00

...JUST SHARING THIS POEM IVE READ A WHILE AGO. SIGH!♥ I WOULD APPRECIATE THIS MORE IF THIS WOULD BE PRESENTED ON A ''♪POETRY READING♪'' EVENT. HAAAAAAY...♥ ♥ ♥

Phenomenal Woman by Maya Angelou
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Bukas na Liham

2010-02-15T12:10:00.000-08:00

Ginugunita ko pa din hanggang ngayon kung paanu tayo nagsimula. Tipong natapos ng hindi sinimulan. Ikaw ang dahil kugn bakit ko ito itatala sa Blogsite na ito at ipagpalit ang konting minuto ng pagttrabaho para lamang sa pagbubulalas ng damdamin.

Sa pagkakatanda ko...lumipas ang siyam na taon bago ko ulit naramdaman ang ganitong sentimiyento. Nakakaburyong!

Kung hindi ko ito issulat. iiyak ako. Malamang...

Nangyayare na naman, paulit ulit na din lng! Pag lumayo ako. Lalapit ka. Lalayo ka...hahabulin kita! Walang patutunguhan! Tumatagal at lumilipas ang panahon na ganuon na lang nag nangayayari at hinahayaan ko naman. ..

Tandang tanda ko pa ang paghahabol mo at pagtatanggol na ipaglaban ang nararamdaman mo..ang sarap balikbalikan! Napakapuro. Walang humaharang sa isip mo. Ako lng.Pero ako ang pilit na lumayo.Inaamin ko naman.....

Kaya nakakabiglang malaman na sa loob ng apatnapu't walong oras, magbabago ang lahat...ayoko ng idetalye dahil namumuhi ako! Poot ang nangingibabaw. Di man kita matanaw na kasama ang iba,kaulayaw mo nmn sa sariling isipan ang iba!Na kung kailan,dko na ginapos ang nararamdaman at hinayaang sumabay sa agos, ikaw nmn ag pilit lumayo. Hwag mong isumbat, dahil pinili kong ibalik ang lahat, na hindi naman nangyare. At yun ang ikinamumuhi ko.

Pero yun ang nakaraan..at patuloy pa din namang paminsan minsan ay ako pa din ang nakakaulayaw ng hungkag at walang saysay mong isipan. Patawad kong matatawag kung gayon ang pag iisip mo, dahil puno ako ng inis, pero maari mo ding sabihing ito ay isang kabalintunaan! At igagalang ko yon...

Eh.. bakit ba hindi ko itinuloy?
Naiisip ko pa lang na subukang panindigan ang damdaming kinubli, alam ko , walang kahihinatnan. Tatagos pa din ang pagkatakot.Siguro nga ay natatakot lamang ako sa maaring kahihinatnan ng desisyon at mga pagsisisi. Takot akong magsisi sa huli, dahil malayo yan sa mga paniniwala ko. Pero hindi ba ako nagsisisi ngyn? wala bang pumapasok kahit kaunti mang pagsisisi? panghihinayang? Anumang salita ang gamitin,di ko maissuot sa sako o sa iskaparate ang resulta ng patuloy na pagkkubli. Ako ang nahihirapan,at nagpapakitang ang nararamdaman ko ngayon ang nagddugtong sa realidad, sa nakkikita ko sa sarili ko. Wala ng sariling pagkkunwari at pagtatanggol. WAla. Ako pa den ang talunan!

At napagdesisyunang, hahayaan ko na lamang maging ganito. Dahil ako ay maihahalintulad lamang sa isang kagutuman na minsanan lng kung dumating sayo. Sa kadalasan ay kung kailangan mo. Ayoko din namang ikaw ang lumisan, o ako man! Gusto kong tapusin pero Di ko mabigyan ng dahilan sa sarili upang tuldukan ang lahat. Gusto ko ay may katapusan. Para madaling tangayin ng hangin at kalimutan. Mas mainam kung hindi maganda, dahil hindi ako naniniwala sa kagandahan ng katapusan sa pag-ibig. Lahat may Paghihirap. Pasakit.

Kaya ko namang iwaglit ang nakahulma mong pagkatao sa isip ko..ang totoo, kaya ko! Nahihirapan lgn ako.. ang nais ko ay aminin mong hindi mo rin kaya at pilit mo ring ikinukubli. Ang gusto ko ay ipahiwatig mo ito sa salita. Ayoko ng magbasa ng kilos mo...

Mananalangin na lamang ako, at kakapit sa isang himala na daratign ang panahon na ang ulo ko mismo ang iuuntog sa matigas bagay at patuloy na tatawanan ang lahat.
Harinawa!

*pahabol*
Ang lakas ng loob ko pero anu ba ang ikinababalisa ko, hindi mo naman paglalaaanan ng oras ang magbasa ng ganito at alm kong hindi masasagi ng iyong mga mata ang ganitong klase ng kabaliwan! Pero hindi naman ito para sayo..para sa ken ito! At gaya ng nabanggit ko iyo.,ang lahat ng ito ay paulit-ulit kong ihihingi ng tawad,,sa sarili ko at sayo!

TAYTAY FaLLs♥

2010-02-12T16:43:00.001-08:00

Initialy, this Laboy supposed to be a visit in PagsanjanFalls, pero it ended in Majayjay. (kase that time ayoko sumakay sa bangka..medyo napapaisip pa at natatakot=)). Am not sure and i dont know if mymemory seve me well now, but as i am thinking right now, this was my first nature trip with a buddy, tas nagtuloy tuloy na..it happened Feb 0f 2008.
So there,we've ran out of time to visit other falls since going to another falls would really take few hours of trekking. Di nmen alm ang pagpunta, but asking people around that area helped us..hehehe=)

ayan..we're losT! san na tayooo!! hwaaaaa!!!

Ive heard Majayjay had 7Falls around the mountains. We only had a chance to get to the nearest falls, TayTay Falls, where it would only take you 10-15 minutes of walks. Lapit lng! Mas malayo pa yung travel pababa ng bundok sa jeep=)

SO TAKE A LOOK BELOW COLLECTED PICS. WALA PKONG MAAYOS NA DIGI CAM. NANG ERAM LNG and SOME SHOTS THRU ULYDEL's MOBILEPHONE.

YIPEEEE!! WE'RE HEEEEEEEEEEEREEEEEEE!!! =)

O IKAW NMN! YOU'RE TURN!! PITSUR!!! =)

AN LAMIG D2!! UMUUSOK BIBIG KO! PRAMIS!! =)

GANDA NG FALLS..ANLAKE! I LOOOVE FALLS!!!!

LAMIG!! BRRRR..(di maayos ang mga pics namen...)

stone formation! palage ako nakakakita ng gento! galing! balancing!

ive tried to stay for a few minutes at the back of that falling water, katakot!!

AYAN..SUPER LAMIG..MOMENT MUNA AKO..=)

o kunyare stolensot! cge kaen lng ..maya nko!

CAPONES and KAMARA ISLAND

2010-02-11T10:17:00.001-08:00

4am:
...next post.
...bukas na lng to! hehehe =)

5pm :
uploading pics..il do thE stories later..hehe..besybesyhan=)

feb12,2010--3am
SUNSET VIEW FROM PUNDAQUIT BEACH RESORT
another OutOf Town with MyHighschoolFriends, still in Zambales and this i highly recommend..where you could spend not much money and enjoy the nature at the same time.

*just Message me if you wanna know some how-to-get-there infos, my pleasure to give details!*

You can visit 3 islands on this Town, Capones,Kamara and Anawangin, found in San Antonio, Pundaquit , Zambales. There are resort around on that area so a place to stay is not a problem before doing the Island hopping .

KAMARA ISLAND
Storm passed before we went there,and we're lucky 'tho.On that day...the sky was clear and weather was really great!The good thing about Kamara is that , it has a Sandbar on the middle and you wont see the whitesand during hightide.
Trivia: if you've seen the Dingdong Dantes and marian Rivera's advertisement of SAnMarinoCornbeef, You'll see the ISland on the Background.=)

CAPONES ISLAND
Very relaxing place too..we did rounds on this island but we've never been to Lighthouse. We're told na its delikado daw. Hmmm..i doubted kase,pinupuntahan tlg un eh. Ewan ko ba dun sa bangkero na yun! We just had our lunch there and ended our day in Kamara island, then went back to the resort.

PUNDAQUIT FALLS
yun o! me falls din..few minutes trekking along mountain of pundaquit.
Akala ko beack lang..hweeeeeeeeeee!!!=)

ANAWANGIN COVE

2010-02-10T22:02:00.000-08:00

Ive been to this place last November of 2008. This was after me and my Highschool friends had a vacation last Sept2008,and visited only CApones and Kamara island. After a month, ive decided to get back on that place we've missed, and Explored Anawangin...

I went back there with a friend....

HERE ARE THE SHOTS WE'VE GOT FROM THAT ISLAND and wOULD TELL THE TALE ITSELF :
Got a chance to explore the FOrest side..that was noon and so serene, only birds and rustling of leaves resonates on that area. Ive tried to look for the river's end, anticipating i might see the Falls, but i failed and went back, got feared that i might lost and never have my way out of the forest.

AKO ANG DIWATA NG MGA PINETREES! TADAAAA!!! =)

yipeee..puno!!!!=)

SA ILOG...

SA DAGAT...

BeLow is The Other side of Anawangin...

...I forgot the name of the Cove but it's a private island owned by someone who also had a resort in zambales. According to Marvin, there are still wild animals found on that place. Its quite few , but there is and not devirginized during that time. No camping site yet on that area. Only the company of trees, animals ,the blue sky and sea will entertain your sight. Very reLaxing..actually isa to sa gusto kong babain from mababang bundok at iexplore.=)

Marvin (the ever reliabLe bangkero, he's been with us the whole day, tell stories of anawangin, cooked our lunch, and assisted us in every way he couLd...mabaeT pa..his monicker : Marvin AKA 'dingdong danTis')
**just in case you have plans on visiting the islands of ZAMBALES, recemmended bangkero would be Marvin. =)

I FELL IN LOVE ON THAT ISLAND and I AM STILL FALLING...I REALLY AM LOOKING FORWARD ON GOING BACK even IF IT WOULD TAKE ME ALONE TO GO THERE , I WILL..sigh!

♥Featured Photos♥

2010-01-22T16:17:00.000-08:00

A month ago, got an email invitation on this website from a person named Kris. I never knew him, so just wondering how and where did he got myemail. So i still proceed and checked the site, well,its all about Photography!!! Not bad..so i've registered and Uploaded some of the shots ive captured specially those out-of-town pics.

After few days, Ive received email again that some of my uploaded pics was on the FEATURED PHOTOS section. Funny 'tho! Altho its not a popualr site..T'was such a good feeling to received Comments, appreciation even criticisms from those who are knowledgeable. The fact that, i dont even know any technical rules about photography , i only have the appreciation! =)
(actually ive also received comments from people who i could say ..a reliable AND credible one. I am receiving compliments like 'You really have an Eye For Photography, why dont you study?'

you could take a look over here, just click here=)

another one ! CLICK HERE=)

i could say that i am an Amateur and lookign forward on taking a short course about Photography ,probably, when i reach 33yearsold. I will also buy my very own Professional Camera that i am drooling on until now..=))

Why dont you register ,too..It will give you some Fun , that's if, your in to photography and enjoying taking pics.

MassageTherapySchooLing

2010-01-12T15:39:00.000-08:00

ive already graduated and still waiting for my Certificate and looking frward on another Tutorial Class about Shiatsu and thai massage,after that class, i'll be on my HomeServiceMassage Biz..hehehe=)

I just want to share these pics :

*******PRACTICUM********

GO LANG ..KAHIT UNG IBA DI PA NALILIGO..HEHEHEHEHE =)

si Konsehal.

si Mam at si Brgy Captain.

Payment for rendering service...FOOD! hehehe=)

whew! super pagod! puyat..oiliness! whew! =))

PAIN

2010-01-12T13:19:00.001-08:00

a friend have asked me why not sharing sentiments and sort of painful events that ive been through lately.

its just because i am person who can share emotions when it became intense and felt that there's a need to burst it out.

it's not a need that every detail should be shared.

all these years,i've just noticed that im already used to it.
i am already used on helding pain within and still depending on healing it within.

i've endured all those...and surpassed it ,afteraLL!

(googled pic..heheheeh..backPAIN kase eh..back pain lang..hehhehehehe )

Eto na Ang Diwata!

2010-01-06T12:09:00.000-08:00

natisod ko ang Tulang ito sa blog ni KA PETE, ibinabahagi ko lamang..bbihira din kase akong makagusto ng tula,mapa ingles man o sa wikang tagalog. Isa lgn ang nasambit ko...

KUNIN MO DIWATA ANG MGA TAKSIL NA BINATA!!!IPAIN!!IALAY!!!HAHAHAHAHA
( witch laugh..hahahahahaha )

MARIANG MAKILING

Nasa gubat muli ang ating diwata.
Managhoy man tayo'y hindi siya lalabas.
Ang ibig niya'y isang taksil na binata.

Pagsapit ng dilim ang mga bintana
ay dapat isara; dapat nang mag-ingat:
nasa gubat muli ang ating diwata.

Walang masabi ang mga manghuhula,
kahit sino'y walang magawa, sapagkat
ang ibig niya'y isang taksil na binata.

Matapos ang unos, sino ang gagala
upang aluin ang mga sawimpalad?
Nasa gubat muli ang ating diwata

at ngayon ay hindi na nababahala
kung ang mangangaso'y maligaw ng landas.
Ang ibig niya'y isang taksil na binata.

Laganap sa buong bayan ang balitang
tulala siyang lagi't tuhod ang kayakap.
Nasa gubat muli ang ating diwata
pagkat ang ibig ay taksil na binata.

--JOSE F. LACABA

Status Message

2010-01-06T02:16:00.000-08:00

He's the reason why i am awake right now and woke up from a dream. He's a reason why i am doing this free-writing...
A dream that made me think of him again, it should'nt be that way for we know that we really are having our own liFe.

I woke and get off from bed and an urgency of seeing at least any link via web that could connect me to him, made me do this just to pacify this feeling...

Its been so long..i reallly wonder why his face appeared in mydreams this past few days. It seems so reaL.it's a Lucid Dream

Yeah., right! I keep on murmuring questions like.. How is he and Where is he now? I've tried to visit her account in Friendster but its not even updated. Still, a family man on his account. A pinch of 'kilig' visited me again when i still saw my account on his 'FeaturedFriends',after ive added him up, at least seeing me on that space eases this Sadness (yeah, ive searched and addded his account, pathetic, right?).
A man with few friends but i know he really is satisfied with his life! I never thought that he could make his life that way and with him living on his own world,i could say that i would'not be remembered. Its really impossible that a little touch of myFace would pass his busy mind. Neither, wonder where am i nor recall the old feelings.

A deep-seated sigh!

If onLy i could rewind those days. If only i could bring up same feelings again,so many 'if's' and it just ended there. It's only right now i'd realize that i've should gave importance on that relatonship. Why didn't i? maybe i was young way back then...the emotional attachment i've had with him was so intensed that i got feared for the feeling itself and gave high regard with my pride.

Ive tried to search his name on Facebook, luckily, his name appeared, having mutual friends. It seems that's it not updated , too. But i am seeing updated pictures. He's been to different places meeting lots of girls ,obviously, because of his work and it shows that he's a succesful man.He really seems so happy and i envy him.,i also envy the woman behind of all his happiness, ive never envied people this way and it feels that i am hurting..

WeLL..i am living in my superficial and fantasy world. Creating my own story within. I've really wanted seeing him again. It's unexplainable and undone. Its really hard to be trap on a feeling that you may say 'unfinish'. It will continuosly haunt you and affect some events in ur life. And what is happening with me right now is an Episode, i hope that its just a mood!

Well.. after writing this,i'll turn myLaptop off and jusT sit here and with this silence.. hoping that even in memories, i can still be with him. Its not a ''Period'' event in my Life right now..it's just a Coma., its undone and I am looking forward..i am..looking..forward..come what may!

MyFirstBlog for this Year

2010-01-03T21:21:00.000-08:00

i reaLLy dont have any Halo, i could say that i am really a sinner,but seeking Spirituality is really on my system. Since i was a chiLd, ive been actively participating on catholic activities. Ive joined Hijas de Maria and Legion of Mary, regularly went on attending mass every sundays, and consistently visited the VigiL and confession area. But as time went on,sometimes, not what you knew before, would be stiLL your belief as you grew up. SeLf-exploration helped me on this and passed my Adolescent years. I've been on what they've called struggles of teenage years and struggles within. Questions of Existentialism and introspection played on my mind. ,and i could say that, people do need guidance sometimes. Its really a Need.Anyways, that's usual, i guess! =)

...and that's how it was started. =)
..started reading the bible, reading articles of different beliefs and listening to different preachers. ive been fascinaTed with Buddhism but leave it just like that till ive found him. Never ive treated and looked to him only as a preacher himself. he's been a good teacher, too. he's been well versed in the bible. Just recently he brought an International award from a popular online web contest, and his blog has been candidate and fortunately won over those 70,000 nominees, including Paolo Coelhos blogsite. YOu will learn a lot from this site,spiritually speaking. Just feel free on browsing and reading articles from it.
'Tho when speaking of this book, The Bible,it would be strictly spiritual,but it's not, i regard this as a regular Book, just like i am reading Paolo Coelho's stuff. ive learned from the bible anything from History and Science. It tackles everything, music, love stories, homosexualities, emotions, vices, friendship,psychology..etc. Lots of categories!! Its just that, you have to be guided, otherwise, you will misconstrued details.

i am fond of the new testaments for it really discusses how early christians were during those days.Eventually, i know that i could perfectly followed rules but sometimes ive really felt so weak. ..

I also do like different quotes on the Proverbs for it really quoted different learnings in life but i havent tried to finish reading it until now and am lookign forward on buying another one, gusto ko ugn may english translations para masaya. hehe=)

Ang Suha..errrrrrr

2009-12-29T14:28:00.000-08:00

Its not myFirst time eating Suha or Lukban, whatever you may call it, yet my firstime on peeling this fruit!

Ang hirap. kainis! Tas yun lng ung Laman?!EFFFoOOoOOOrT! Effort tlg.. i was so dissapointed but still, ive ate it anyway!Ayan na-bLog ko tuloy. hihihih. =)

Devirginized Part II-B

2009-12-24T18:19:00.000-08:00

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! Ako with judy who took these pics in the hospital. She have also decided to spent er night and slept there. Kawawa daw kase ako..walang kasama!! =)

Cara was the first who've visited me. Aside from Kapamilyas ive had visitors aside from those who've texted me. ung iba, kapag daw ng 1 week nako sa hospital sila dadalaw..hehheheh=)
Thanks also to Richard, Jeff,Ynah, Lyna, Jane, and TL Ryan. I really appreciate the 'effort'.. I really do.
After that morning, ive realized that i dont have sleep yet. i am awake since the other day pa..i've got worried with myplatelet counts and bloodpressure. Bka lalong bumaba! Que Horror.. So ive decided and pushed my eyes closed and let myself to sleep at 2pm and i still have to count Sheeps just to get hypnotized and got tired.

HOurs passed and All i know was i am almost..ALMOST on my deep sleep.. when, ive heard two KNOCKS on the door at biglang may pumasok!!!

"GOOOooOOoooOOOOD AFTERNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON MAM!!!!: (hightone and smiling..)

"I AM LISA FROM COCCOLIFE PO!!! Ay, wala po kayong kasama? kakalungkot nmn,kakaiba to sa mga nkita ko, ung iba po kase may mga bantay..anlungkot nmn. Pero saglit lng to mam, explain ko lng po ung about sa Card, ugn mga kailangn po just in case mapalabas na po kayo bukas...."

AKO : ok miss huweyt lng..nagulat kase ako sa pagpasok mo eh. ansakit ng ulo ko..huweytlng ha..huweyt..few minutes.
(i didnt know if ive sounded sarcastic but she responded, still smiling..que baribaridad hija!)

sa totoo lng..dun ko lng naexperience ung bigla kang naistorbo sa pag tulog aT naunahan nya ung pagbalik ng ulirat ko bago man lng sya pumasok!!!Ang saket sa ulo..sus!

Ive anticipated that i wont enjoy my stay on that 4cornered-room, pero di den, inururat ko nlng ung mga tao dun. Every now and then, Nurse came over to get sample blood. , tamang chickahan kame nung OJT na nurse dun ..we've tlaked about nursing stuffs and ah uhmm, i forgot his name ,anyway ,and ung Janitor, mabait den! He have even offered his help if i am needing something. Naawa kase sila saken wala daw akogn kasama..hahahaha. I should have a BF daw..hw0ooosho0oooo..di den..hahaha=))

(it looks like that im in a PEDIA ward. Pero, hindi eh..un tlg ung room nila. Bedsheet were changed everyday, still, cartoon character pa den ung design. hehe)

So tiLL then, ive just included this experience on myblog since this is one of those "first time" of myLife.

Devirginized Part II-A

2009-12-22T22:00:00.001-08:00

After that Saturday's Gettogether with our team..ive never had enough sleep and ive never felt OK. Sunday have passed without going out, and monday too. Buti n lng, im on-leave ng Lunes. Then, tuesday came. Pasok nmn sa skul ng hapon. After class and got home, i went to my room then ,tried my very best to sleep since i still have work that night. All i know is that i am so tired during that weekend, ( ireally dont even know why kase ive always been 'Laboy') untill after myclass. when i woke up..i've reallyfelt so exhausted and weary..seems that ive never had enough energy to get-up and call to the office and tell them that i cant make it up to work..but i did! ive called,of course,using mymobilephone. Buti nlng may load..hehehe..=)

THen..ive closed my eyes...

WEdnesday. All i knw was, ive had Fever the other night even on that last weekend. 'Tho i was'not able to get mytemperature on those days. I knew within that i am sick. So i need to go to the hospital for my Med cert. The nearest is a public hospital that is not even accredited buy our CompanyMedCard, but all i need was a MEDCERT for my SL. So i went there alone. i walked and looked for a trycycle just to get there. So exhausted..Ive tooked my Laboratory exm. it tooked me few minutes just to go back and forth for all those requirements..and so with that ive really felt that im losing my spare energy..but not to the point of fainting mydear! hehehe. =)

So after the sort-of laboratory exam, ive got the result and guess what?!
I've HAD DENGUE AND UTI!!!! with those expLanation that the doctor have had told me, all those i wasnt able to absorbed even understood.hahahahaha..Nanlalambot nkase ako..need ko ng magpahinga..ALL I'VE NEEDED WAS A MEDCERT FOR MY ABSENCES. AYOKONG MAGPACONNFIIIIIIIIIIIIIINED!!!!!! but the doctor was so persistent and she've really insisted na kelangn ko daw maconfined because of myplatelet counts. It really decreases daw. Ive just told her that i' should transfer to the other hospital which is Divine Grace. eh kase wala nkong maisip na accredited hospital near on our place. So ang ending... i went home again, alone.and decided not to tell my parents about my medical result.

soooobrang pagod!! all ive needed was rest..

10:30pm
NANAY: knock..knock..O, leli.. kumusta ang pakiramdm mo..ngpatingin ka ba sa doktor para me mapakita ka sa opis?
AKO : oo
NANAY : O ano sabe? anu bng nararamdaman mo?
AKO : La lang..me lagnat ako..nanalalambot ako. sabe lng uminom lng daw ako ng gatorade, yun lng..
NANAY: gnun ba o di cge..kumain k muna d2.
AKO : (no reaction)

after a few minutes....

AKO : Nanay!!!! tawag mo ko ng trycyccle...
NANAY: o baket? san ka ppunta?
AKO : magpapaconfine ako??sabe kase ng doctor me DENGUE daw ako at UTI eh!! eh ayoko magpconfine dun, pinipilit ako eh eh ayoko nga.. punta nlng ko ng divinegrace. anung bang mgnda ngyn nlng ako mgpaconfine o bukas? blah..blah..blah..yada..yada..yada.. (almost panicked..)
NANAY: huh? eh me pasok ako bukas eh,..
AKO : tatawag nyo lng ako ng trycycle..di nyo nmn ako sasamahan sa ospital eh..mgpapaconfine ako..MAGPAPACONFINE AKO!!!!!!
NANAY : (no reaction)

after a 5mins...

NANAY: o leli..magbihis kana..kunin mo na ang mga gamit mo at ayan na ang trycycle..
AKO : ok..wait lng.

my father who was on his deep sleep during that time woke up...

NANAY: tatay..aalis lng kame ni leli..magpapaconfine daw cya. Samahan ko lng to saglit dun.
AKO : babay! =)

Next scene was already there in DivineGrace. Ive told my mom to go back home kase kaya ko nmn..im not even bedridden.So pasok nko sa hospital...

To make that scene short...ive had again another procedure just to make sure that i am having dengue and UTI. So the so-called procedure went on and heard one of the nurse in blue uniform yelled and called the doctors attention.

NURSE : DOC! POSITIVE SA DENGUE.
AKO : hala,,naku..

after a few minutes again...

NURSE1 : mam, dextrose po muna tayo ha..and a ter ilang minutes aakyat n nmen kayo sa taas..
AKO: Masaket ba yan?
NURSE2 : (ume-epaL) OO MASAKET! (hightone)
AKO : (pabulong) Ay! kabog!hehehe
NURSE : eh mam, wala po ba kayong kasama ngyong gabi? wala po kayong bantay?
AKO : wala eh..pinauwe ko na..=)
NURSE : ha?! ah ok..

So there...it was really not in my plan to be there in the hospital, its just that ive had this txt conversation with Jhe before Nanay went home that night. She's asking mycondition and told stories of her sister who got dengue twice. She have also told me to take it seriously because platelet counts really go down fast and doctors should have monitor those , otherwise, i should have undergo blood transfusion. And with that, ive got feared for myself and also for my life! Its like a sense of urgency took my mind and decide ...to go OR not to go. heheheh..

I was devirginized...its really my first time to got confined and had Dextrose. 'Tho mixed feeling..it was nice and it felt so good. hehe.

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2009-12-22T19:48:00.000-08:00

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ThoughTs

2009-12-18T23:22:00.000-08:00

waLa lang
i feel an abrupt rush of writing down these thoughts.

a pause ►►►►just a short pause and space for these flowing of thoughts. they're all overlapping and with that, i dont know how to start. bsta i'll type all those nlng.

☻ freewriting ☻

♠actually i still dont have sleep right now, ive been here from Office at 10am, then ive fixed some things, do the laundry,, ooops..just my undies and some shirt,the rest were done by my dad! and now..it's 3pm. later at 5p i have to go for a Reunion with Childhoodfwends. so just wondering until what time will i spend my time with them so i could sleep or just get back on typing and browsing again over the Net?

♫ ♫ ♪ ♫ ♪ ive requested a song on NU107 just now..di pa nap-pLay. its OWNER of the SKY by Cynthia Alexander. how i looove that song. if only i could play the guitar just like her. ♫♫♪♫ if only ive spent my time on studying the guitar by myself... sigh! i do know strumming and have learned some chords..ive even dont know how to tune it! sigh again...

♠ haaay..have existentialism cross your mind? have you ask yourself things that bothers you,, your purpose here in life? waht for? and how to improve your own life? is it a success or failure?have you achieved some schemes on your mind? failure..frustrations..lonelines..emptiness.all those pessimistic thoughts! ive been on that state when i was 16-19 years old, iguess. hahaha..i am remembering those days..those days. sleepless nights and being nocturnal for months. listening to NU107 and been updated for all those artist around. Music magazines, drawing. painting...and then Acceptance. ;)

♠ the last thing i will type here is this:

♠ i cant push myself on a principle that has been self imposed. sometimes di ko kyang panindigan! and it so sad. its so complex! why cant i stand on my own thing , my own principle. i am missing myself! myselves! all my life ive always been myself. do you think so? i think so,...

TeamBuiLding??

2009-12-15T19:31:00.000-08:00

...after seeing Nolin in SM after myshift,because of his kalakal..ive met my officecolleagues in macapagal pasay for a Team building sort of Night-out for the newbies,Tadaaaaa.. Jeff.,Rhyma,and Lyna!! ;)

JuLes and TL RYan

YnaH, RHYMA and LyNa..

The EDI girLs..JaneT and JAne..Tadaaaaaaaaaa!!! =)

JEFF..Awwww!hehehe

smiLe jinky..smileeeeey!!!!!hehehe

YNAH, LYAN AND RJ

TL Ryan and Richmond

LYNA MAE! YOU'RE ATTACKING ME!! YEAH..RIGHT ..I KNOW IM LATE!!!HEHEHE =)

OK..OWKEI..DONT NAG..I KNOW..IKNOW..IM LATE! HEHEHE

SEAFOODS...MASARAP. BUT I AM NOT INTO THAT KIND OF ULAM EH.HEHEHE;)

OA Team minus Mark,JeTay, jane, janeth, rhym and Harries..umuwe na eh.hehehe

From spending our dinner in MacapagaL to a night-out in Padi's MaLate..it ended in Starbucks ,Pasay.
It' was a looong night for everyone.
TiLL our next 'budget' for teambuiLding..weh?! hehehe=)

WhaT HapPenneD?!?

2009-12-11T08:43:00.000-08:00

HeLLo There!! =))

ive got sick and confined in the hospital for 3days, that made my momentum on any of my activities gone and made me lazy for weeks because all I have to do is rest..rest..and help myself gained back the sense of 'rush' on my system.hehe.
My Only routine was to go to work then get-back-home..then Rest!

Huwell..what happened then?

Its been a while since I havent post anything here..i also havent check Payperpost, Neobux, and socialpark
I've only had few minutes staying in front of my laptop browsing and checking accounts because I am having headaches and my eyes got easily tired off and I cant bear it.I ve also felt that I really don’t have any energy that ive had before. A simple activity made me seem worn-out that easily. A thought of maybe, im just depressed OR sad, but a thought also contradicted all those because i still have All myreasons to live and I still have goals and motivation on living. A thought, maybe im on-denial but I AM NOT!Hello!!! whaT pushed me to think that way??helllaer?!! Arrrrgh..hehehe=))

All I know is that im so heLpless, i really am so weak..but not bed-ridden., during those days that made me thought more of those activities that I cant perform.
So the doctor just advised me to just rest..so im just sicked so I still have the chance to gain back my very goodhealth.

All I did was to drink plenty of water…Gatorade..and sterilized and sometimes non-fat milk..hehehehe..( Gulpp..Gulp..gulp...BluuuuurK ! ) =)
Not to mention eating Fruits everyday and I preferred my uLam to be always Vegetables and never mind the diet that i've set within myself since highschool..toinks!

WeLL..those few days…
So many things had happened..

..and I'll try to squeezed that in for this month..hahahaha..

YEY!! I AM JUST WELCOMING MYSELF BAAACK!! =))

♪♪ MyFather'sBandmates ♫

2009-11-15T01:11:00.000-08:00

AFTER THE WHOLE DAY THERAPY SESSION ON MY TRAINING SCHOOL YESTERDAY, IVE HURRIEDLY WENT HOME SO I COULD CATCH AT LEAST 3-4HOURS OF ENOUGH SLEEP BEFORE GOING TO WORK AT NIGHT.
SO EXHAUSTED THAT I WAS EXPECTING A VERY SERENE PLACE AROUND MY ROOM, AND OUR HOUSE AS WELL...A COMFY BLANKET AND BED,NO LOUD RADIOs FROM NEIGHBORHOOD, A NICE WEATHER..NO DISTURBANCE!

THATs WHAT I'VE ANTICIPATED...=)

MY FATHERs LONG TIME FRIENDS FROM HIS COMBO DAYS VISITED HIM THAT DAY.
I WAS GLAD TO SEE HIM WITH THEM, ITS BEEN A LONG TIME THOUGH'.
THEIR LAST REUNION WAS 1998 . A DECADE AGO AND NOW I AM SEEING THEM AGAIN. IT FEELS GOOD TO RECOLLECT THOSE DAYS ESPECIALLY IF YOU'RE WITH FRIENDS,and IN MY FATHERs CASE, REMINISCIN THOSE BANDA DAYS COULD BRING THEIR YOUTH BACK.
OPPOSITE OF WHAT IVE THOUGHT OF, ,IVE THOUGHT THAT I COULD SLEEP AS I WOULD REACHED OUR HOUSE...I'VE PICKED MY CAMERA, AND TOOK SOME PICS!
A SIMPLE KEEPSAKE ON MY PART, IF NOT OF HIM, SINCE HIS INTEREST WAS NOT ONTO CAPTURING MUSHY MOMENTS LIKE THIS. SINCE AFTER SEEING THEM MADE MY EMOTIONS SO ELATED, NO MORE YAWNS.,,
I WENT ON-LINE CHECK MY ACCOUNTS and TOOK A PEEKED AND PEEPED ON WHAT THEY'VE TALKING ABOUT, IVE HEARD THEIR LAUGHTERS, TEASING EACH OTHER. IVE HEARD THEY WILL BE HAVING A GET-TOGETHER AGAIN ON DEC.04..((TAY SAMA AKO!! PITSUR PITSUR LANG AKO!HEHE)) =))

ITS NICE AND IT FELT SO GOOOOD! =)

♪ KaguLuhanFestivaL 2009 ♪

2009-11-08T16:14:00.000-08:00

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SATURDAY MORNING : ive texted Clifford,KaikatsunaVox-turns-collegeGigBuddy ,to confirm what's up with kaguluhan later at night. He replied that their sLot would be 8pm,and he'was not sure if that's really their sched since he haven't got any news yet about the line-up.Jaycee, on the other hand,he's band SUBCULTURE,will also on the line up too and i havent seen him performing,so im also looking forward to see him how well he is on stage, 'tho ive already seen he's band so many times wayback 2004.

After OfficeShift , CAra was here at myplace and stayed here till 2pm.
So ive set my alarmcLock 7:30p and went to our room at 4pm. I am counting sheeps and finally, got tired and slept at 5pm, i guess!

Ive heard myAlarm clock rang at 7:45p and checked that t'was set on Snooze. So maybe, ive heard it at 7:30p and just brushed it off. Since i am feeling so drowsy, ive had a secondthought of not attending the event since i cant get off mybed. I've felt so exhausted physically. I dont know why! I am not like this before...i am not easily got tired..esp pag gig ang pinaguusapan..harharharhar!! =))

With those secondthoughts' at mga 5minutespa-babangon-din-ako haggling with myself,
I SINCERELY WOKE UP AT 10:30PM!!!!! HWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! GOT PANICKED!!!Ive asked mysister to turned off the computer and fixed herself because we're late! all she could have said was ''AH,NGAYON BA YUN?!CGE..WAIT LANG.."=)

So,this is it,ive rushed myself off to bed, without taking a bath, ive just tied myhair ,wore my bestida, get my camera, purse and wore my tsinelas then got off.

WE arrived there 12mn. Ive seen Rico.kaikat's drummer and ive looked for Ford.
He've just said "ANDUN SA BACKSTAGE" , so i just waited to see him around. After rico left, Ford followed and sarcastically joke around, "O BAT NGYN KA LANG,DI MO KAME NAPANUOD.PALAGE NAMANG 'SIN' ANG PINAPANUOD MO EH, DI MO NMN KAME PINAPANUOD EH".
Ive just said..." NA-LATE AKO NG GISING BRO, SUBCULTURE DI KO DEN NAPANUOD.BADTRIP NGA EH..(defensive)ME POSTER KA BA NITONG EVENT?HEHEHE..PENGE..(whispering)WALA NA SA ENTRANCE AREA EH" =)
''OK CGE..MERON SA BAHAY..ABOT KO NALNG KE J.M PABIGAY KO NLNG SAYO..", then, he left. I saw him signing autographs and it felt so unusual. Unusual!! hahahahaha =)

Although we arrived there late, im still fulfilled. Ive satisfied the cravings ive had these past few months. As i remember, the last KAGULUHAN fest ive watched was last 2007 pa:
I'll just share some pics here..walang maayos na shots. haaaay.=)

KAguluhan's entrance sTicker-bracelet.

They've merge ..they've merge!! KaguLuhan nga!! hehehhe =)

YUN O!! Rommel of skyChurch!!

tatalikod-ako-sa-crowd-wala-kayo-pakiaLam Award goes to JoeyDizon! The usuaL Rockstar image angle ive always seen on-stage.hehe

JOEY DIZON!

AWWWWWWWWWWWW!! YeY! SIN!!! =))

''THIS IS MY BURNING HOUR!!!!''

WHOOOOOHOOOO!!! MyFavorite guitarist on the verge of their performance wearing white shirt.,i was captured by his aura on stage and got hypnotized,everytime he performs!

ORAYT! baLaTek na!!! hweeeeeeeeeeeee..teka lng ,im wonderin' where's myfave guitarist? I am not familiar now with these two-newly-seen-face on their line-up. I was in the MoshPit!Touch-me-not phuleaaaaase..hehe..bahala kayo!Keber!hehe

Whoa! The other guy at the back, i know, is the main guitarist of STAGNANT, i looove seeing their fingers playing and sliding on the fret. How i wish i could do the same...haaayst! Frustrations! hehe ;)

Balatek's Vox! Ang GaLing! Errrrr=)

This man is a cerTified Pasaway,while BaLatek' was so high and was on peak of their performance, this man on the pic fell from nowhere, maybe, from the stage with blood over his chest. Funny 'tho, people around,esp bouncers, fussing about him says "PATAY NA BA YAN!?!", without helping him or even rush him in the nearby hospital. He slightly moved his legs so that basically mean that he's OK and maybe resting his body by sleeping on the floor.

TO sum it all up..'tho i was late ,t'was great! I could still tolerate the Growling vox's and the muzik itself, and my sister cannot, unlike before!

But stiLL,, i was looking for oLd faces. Those old people, acquaintances ive met during gigs. The crowds and personalities that ive adored, the old atmosphere! The previous.. me.=)

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2009-11-05T09:24:00.000-08:00

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GRAVEYARD shift

2009-11-01T18:31:00.000-08:00

Just want to share some pics on recent Holloween Partee@work!

ORDER ADMIN TEAM..=)

Yehey! DirTy IceCream sa Floor! =)

OAs GRAVEYARD AREA..HEHEHE

The CCC reps on Creepy Costumes! Errrrr..hehehhe

FC Team Area..ive overheard some of those creepy stuffs came from Christian! REally? Weird,ayt!?hehe

OA's spooky meeting..hehehe=)

papitsur lng..dont bite me..errrr!!!

THE BLOGGERS!! DAISYNESS-ON-CALL and ME! =)

WE'RE ON GRAVEYARD CREEPY SHIFT!! ;)

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2009-10-26T19:55:00.000-07:00

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Through searching and clicking into different links, ive accidentally found this engine that could be an additional site for downloadables stuffs. ive tried to search first for these Artist: juan dela Cruz, dave matthews, beatles!, and guess what? they're having it!
Its very unusual for such a new search engine to come up with these kind of artists.
Well, thru my initial search, they've never failed me!=)

Not only that, this site could also provide additional infos or any categories you would like to know.
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b) Powerful search engine
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I am Me! =)

2009-10-21T08:39:00.000-07:00

I COULD BE EXTREMELY HAPPY AND TALKATIVE BUT I COULD BE CATATONIC FOR AN HOUR.
if you've made me disappointed, you've made a mark and i hardly forget.
I AM NOT A COPYCAT OF ANYONE, I AM LIVING MY OWN LIFE AND I REALLY HATED TO BE ASSOCIATED.
i know what i am doing and i rarely ask for advise. If i did, well maybe i am just running out of answers and maybe desperate.
I AM ANXIOUS FOR ANY KIND OF SEPARATION, EVEN IF SOMETIMES IT DONT CONCERNED ME. I JUST HATE A THOUGHT OF IT.
im a christian and I am still trying to be a good one yet a part of me says I should be a lame believer.
I HARDLY FORGET MEMORIES!
ive never aimed High,neither aspire for Power.They've expected me to have it. Just a bit of success will do!
I WANNA DIE OF NO PAIN AT THE AGE OF 60. AT LEAST BEFORE 60, I'D BE GONE ON THIS EARTH.
sometimes, i like it when people ask for my help, and i'll be disappointed if i dont have any means of doing so.
I HATE TO SEE HELPLESS PEOPLE.
i like it too, when people talks about emotions and points of view.
I LIKE GUYS WHO STIMULATES AND TICKLES MY IDLE MIND. I LIKE BEFRIENDING THEM. ;)
i like chasing people i admire yet easily get off when tired.
SOMETIMES, I PLAYED AND APPEARED DUMB JUST TO LET OTHERS FEEL THAT THEY'RE SMART.
(oh ! i forgot, that sometimes i really am Dumb! so when you noticed it,please dont dare to talk to me..my mind is wandering, maybe! and on Astral State! hehehe)
i like seeing people so delighted and confused, im so entertain seeing facial expressions!=)
I DONT LIKE GRUMPY PEOPLE, THEY MADE ME STOOD IN ONE CORNER AND DONT TALK.

Nobody would care even myself wont bother
for someone like you,don’t know anything but yourself.
If judging others would give you excruciationg happiness
then go, Run fast!
enough for me to hear those worlds for I know ,
people OF your kind would indulge into nonsensical stuffs ..and would earn nothing!

IF FOR YOU, I AM NOT NORMAL,
THEN, CALL ME A MADWOMAN!=)

I AM DIFFERENT!!

2009-10-17T18:48:00.001-07:00

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ahmm...those who have known me says that i am not the 'usual'!!

I really dont know how come they have thought, and still, keep on saying that I AM!!

WebHost Geek! ;)

2009-10-17T17:03:00.000-07:00

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im a woman!

2009-10-09T15:34:00.001-07:00

IM AN OUTLET,AN ECHO THAT KEEPS ON LINGERING,
JUST LIKE A PAIL WHERE THE WATER FROM THE FAUCET POURS,
A MAT , WHERE YOU WIPE DOWN YOUR FEET,
A DROPS OF RAIN THAT FEED DURING DROUGHT,
A RELIEF FOR A SUDDEN THIRST,
A REMEDY FOR THAT ITCHINESS.

ITS AN INFLICTED DISTRESS…
A SWEEET AND PLEASING ONE THAT MARKED THOSE DAYS!
SO SWEET THAT EVEN FOR A WHILE AM HOLDING YOUR MIND

YOU'VE MADE ME A WOMAN!
THANK YOU!

S K E P T I C I S M

2009-10-06T20:19:00.000-07:00

John Lennon have said that..
“God is a concept..”

Is it the same notion the catholic pope asserted that..

“Heaven is a state of mind..” ?

I dont know..
all i know is that upon my birth ..
God exists!
As early as i have my awareness of going to church.,
Supreme Being was there.

Deep within my thoughts and understanding..

Heaven was up there..
But never i imagined to be there for i know that i’ll never belong!

If hell is true..the conventional torture and sea of fire,'
Much more i dont belong for i know that once in my life..i do good!
but i am not perfect as my God wants me to be.

Sometimes..
I thought of living without heaven and hell,
Even principles.

Maybe, living simply in this world till your life ends.
Enjoy the resources and not abused it..
No more pride and greed.
Living with positivity without self desires.

If there’s another earth out there?
or If there’s another life after death?
i dont know..
never i thought of having another life after dying.

I’ll just accept that its a perpetual departure.
To let go off the senses..

Death is infinity.

if skepticism is a sin..
then i’ve sinned!

Car-Tastrophe

2009-10-04T12:35:00.000-07:00

Just recently with the Typhoon Ondoy's phenomenon, it destroyed and wrecked hundreds of houses, cars , other investments and even lives have been claimed. Upon watching videos over the news, of course, not to mention those lives that has been affected and shattered, ive also noticed wiped out investments like cars turning upside down and just floating like toys. Its not a good sight and behind seeing those , a thought of Car insurance passed by. Do these cars have those in their contract? What about those who don't have and just have this 'used' car?

I really am not into cars but what had happened last week gave me a slight thought of reading about cars. What if i am having a plan of investing? Upon browsing about cars, ive stumbled this OnlineCarSearch used cars over the net and read if they've offered a good one. Ahmmm..i dont have plans yet of buying, its just that i am just reviewing sites about cars and checking if they're having good reviews and advertise a good investment. This site offers all. Just check it out! =)

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TAMUNENENG

2009-10-03T21:37:00.000-07:00

Si TAMUNENENG..

Si tamuneneng ay dumating sa amin nuong taong 2005 at cya ay pang lima sa aming naging alagang aso.

In fairness naman sa kanya,mabait naman.

Yun nga lang, paranoid!

Dinala cya sa amin ng aking ama, sinakay cya sa motor tas nakalagay sa sako.

Tuwang tuwa kme nung dumating cya..

isa lang kase aso namin eh at un ay si Butototoy.

Yun na nga..isa lng napansin ko sa kanya..paglabas ko sa kanya sa sako.

Tahimik… ..

at ang kanyang mga ‘eyeballs’ ay paikot ikot sa paligid at di cya gumagalaw..

(nahilo ata cya sa byahe)

Tipong..nakikiramdam sa kanyang bagong ‘environment’.

Tumalilis cya ng takbo at pumunta sa isang sulok..ganun p din ang emote nya.

Paranoid!

Lumipas ang maraming araw, ganun pa din cya..

Nakakatakot tuloy..naisip ko bka maging ‘asong ulol’ cya.. .

mailap din kasi cya sa tao, tulo pa laway.

Pag nakakakita ng tao..ngtatago cya sa halamanan..tas di pa cya kumakahol..

Anung klase naman yun?!

Nagresearch ang aking tatay sa kung anung background meron ang asong si tamuneneng.

Napag alaman namin na lumaki pla cya sa tabing ilog..

Sabe nung ng alaga sa kanyang mga magulang, bihira lng daw kase ang tao sa area nila kaya cguro ganun cya..

Mailap!

Hanggang sa..napagdesisyunan ng buong pamilya na pakawalan at iligaw nlng si tamuneneng..

Mahirap pero..kailangan.

Mabigat sa damdamin dahil napamahal na din cya sa amin, kahit papano sa loob ng dalawang buwan.

Nagising na lang ako isang umaga na..

Wala na cya sa aming hardin..

Ayun..nailigaw na pla cya sa bukid ng aking ama,

Dating gawi..sinakay sa motor at nakalagay sa sako.

Nag iwan cya ng tali sa kanyang leeg bilang palatandaan.

Hindi naman daw humabol sa kanya.

Simple lang. tumakbo lng si tamuneneng sa bukid.

Lumipas ang tatlo..limang buwan..

Nang aksidenteng napadaan ang sinasakyan kong trycycle sa bukid na yun.

Short cut kase ang bukid na iyon sa aking pinagttrabahuhan.

NAKITA KO DUN SI TAMUNENENG..TUMATAKBO NA PARANG MASAYA NAMAN

AT NAGLALARONG MAG ISA.

May saltik tlg…at tipong may ‘imaginary friend ‘ pa ata.

Nalaman kong cya yon dahil sa tali sa kanyang leeg.

RAMDAM KO MASAYA CYA DUN. TAS MEDYO TUMABA PA CYA!!NAHIYANG CYA DUN!

At least kahit papanu..alam ko na okay cya..masaya kahit nabubuhay mag isa.. ..

My Favorite Scent! ;)

2009-10-02T23:20:00.000-07:00

Choosing the right scents for myself is not that easy. Ive been to different colognes and perfumes yet ive like a few that will suit me, of course, some of my friends have offered newly scents that was out but i keep on coming back on those ive chose. Its like looking around the mall, finding stuffs then after a while, you'll bought the most likeable stuff that you've just seen among those boutiques you've been through. Its like..picking the best among the rest and its about..choosing what suits your personality or character! ;)

Well..i've love to wear the scents of HugoBossDeepRed,ive find it not that strong and its long lasting.When you've done spraying and evaporates, it gives the staying power. Ive find it very passionate and aromatic that's why i cant let go of it. Its for my everyday use and im so attach.There was a time that ive tried to changed and tried the other but it not a success and the other brand made me feel that, there's something that is lacking and im not comfortable!

Very few have said that the scent is not impressive and i really don't have plans of changing 'tho. =)

What i dislike in a perfume? Hmm....I just dont like Fruity Scent, it's too sweet for me and girly too..not my type too! =)

By the Way, here's a link ive checked on Net, hope this would help you on checking your own scents. =)

BUTOTOY

2009-09-29T18:07:00.000-07:00

Si butotoy..

9years na cya samen eh.So..matanda naba yun para sa isang
normal na askal?

Matanda na cya so anticipated ko na ang kanyang nalalapit o
paparating na pagyao..

Ok n yung expected ko na kesa Makita nlng namen cyang
nakabulagta at di ko malaman ang aking magging emosyon pag nngyare un ng
biglaan. Kagaya ng nngyare ke TUKNENENG,(naunang aso nmen ke
butotoy),papakainin n nmen cya nun eh..ng makita ng kptd ko na nakabulagta nlng
cya dun.Di nmen alm kng bakit..teorya ng tatay ko..inatake! 4years din cya
samen..

Kaya hweto,,nagssulat ako ng tungkol ke BUTOTOY.

Talented yang aso namen,tawag ko dyn
SPIDERDOG,kase..Inaaakyat nya ung gate nmen. .aNg tindi ng adrenaline rush! Dati nga, busyng busy kme kkpanuod ng
TV eh ngulat nlng kme ng tinawag kme ng kapit bahay kase si butotoy daw ay nakabigti..
Nahulog cya from tuktok ng gate,tas naka-hang lang cya..buti nlng ung paa nya
nakatapak sa sanga ng maliit nmeng FiveFingers n halaman.Ayun,kakawagkawag
cya..buti nlng naagapan pa! Second life nya na sigurong maituturing yon! =)

Tas pag ngggitara ako sa labas ng bhay nmen,nsa
tabi ko lng cya..parang isa sa audience. Tas mayamaya konti,tutulugan ako,,Pag si tatay nmn eh nag-Harmonica,tas mataas
ugn tono..mag aawooooooo cya…so parang kumakanta lang…kung anu ung taas ng tono..ppantayan nya un!Yung mga kapitbahay namen nagpapanic na kase nag aawooooo cya,akla nila me mamatay..etc..hehehehe…di nila alm..singer lang tlg si butotoy!=)

At kng makikita nyo sa pic..kinunan ko
cya, alm nyang nasa likod nya ko…pero parang ngpproject cya! At parang sinasabe
nyang..”CGE SHOT LNG NG SHOT!”…hehehe =)

Sa sobrang tanda nya…mahina na din cya kumaen..tas me hika
na den cya..ubo cya ng ubo..tas susuka cya..tas didilaan nya..(yuck!)

Ganunpaman,maasahan namen ang aso n yan kaya para mkpagprepare
n din kme sa nalalapit nyang paglisan eh minabuti nmeng mag alaga n ng ibang
tuta na pinangalanan nmeng OKRAY-OKRAY. (ang asong me malaporselanang mga
garapata!)..Actually dalawa sila ,,hiningi lng sila..ung isa si ANACLETO,kaso
si anacleto pinamigay na kase bihirang kumahol..pangit nmn un,db?!

Ayun,hnggng ngyn nasa amin pa din si Butotoy..inaantay nlng
nmen cyang mabawian ng buhay..sana

matagalan pa..

sana

….(sigh!)

gLoomy saTurday...

2009-09-25T23:57:00.000-07:00

rain..
dark sky..
sunless...
dim light.

cold ...
pain.

melancholy...
sadness...
emptiness.

tears.

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LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!

2009-09-21T12:05:00.000-07:00

I like dealing with different people with different principles, those who don’t just go with the norms and have their own views in life. Some I’ve met, are being treasured and some have passed by and gone, leaving me with their personalities stuck on mymind. Gave me realization that those types are existing and help me to become open minded in this very complicated and mundane world.

Somehow.. ive kept some and still having them!

I am speaking with these two men ive met accidentally, have taught me to be happy and live life to the fullest, without inhibitions! We've had ideas opposing each other but eventually we’ve managed to enjoyed chatting, and that's why until now, am sticking to these people, no matter what!

I just admire the personality that they're having, cos I cant be that way before.
I was asked to have this cliché (as I may call it), to adapt and just go freely with life. Maybe he's been seeing me on a very encapsulated world that he cant imagine.
well, we've been discussing about that for days thru txt and been a topic for an hour of texting and yet ive still insisted not to. ;)

There are some things that I don’t want to do if am not prepared or its not time to do so. I don’t even want to push myself so I wont regret in the end. But then again, he will insist that I might get that moment passed without experiencing such instance, so he will keep on pushing that idea unto me until I've changed the topic..=)

Yeah, ive had inhibitions and lately I realized that time really pass so fast that
im starting to be afraid of REGRETS. The term that I’ve been taking off my mind.
But sometimes an event on our life pushes us to do things and inevitably we've commit mistakes, then, regret it after all! Honestly, its never been treated regret on my part. It’s just became a part of my life and laugh about it!

My faith is that ..if that time comes and ive let it passed, then so be it! I'll just wait for another time and if it wont come, well..i wont regret it!

Now that am prepared for this old cliché, am now starting living my life to the fullest, experiencing what I have'nt experience, to be busy AND NEVER WASTE ANY DAYS OF MY LIFE, AVOIDING MYSELF NOT TO BE IDLE as I can!

Sa Bakuran...

2009-09-19T01:24:00.000-07:00

.....a very comfy zone of our house where i relax.. strum myguitar , do some sketches...read any reading materials..or just do nothing and just sitback for hours!! ;)

EuLoGy

2009-09-14T01:00:00.000-07:00

His death,

Gives me time to reflect,

To assess, to meditate.

How far will i go for this faith?

Have i served Him well?

Can i speak out for what i believed in?

Will i reach the same end?!

He did… till his last breath.

How could people take his life just for principle?

Isn't that their only way of showing prowess to nation?

Is that their last resort?

A gunshot?

Did they prove something after all?

A success on their part!

Silly...Machismo.

Desperate and pity those people who lived and longed for that damn principle.

They're living voraciously.

Greed is their god!

An inverted thumb.

We never pray for his soul.

But we pray for the soul of those who did that to him.

It’s such a sorrow that fighting for principle will reach this gruesome end!

Then, what’s next?

Who's next?

JERRY & THE ECHOES

2009-09-11T12:31:00.000-07:00

Last week, ive planned to meet a friend since its been a year that we havent seen each other. Initially, myplanned was to meet her in Quezon City where she worked in a pharmacy and promised me to give some Vitamins for Free..hehehehe =)

Yet, she decided for us to just dropped by on her BFs regular gig in RenaissanceHotel. Actually, ive told her that i've wanted to see their band because they've been covered 50's-60s songs. .and to my shocked that they've performed on RamonJacinto's Shows on RJ Sunday Jam on Ch.29. =)

So last saturday...we did...
check these photos with their makulit at approachable na P.A (productionassitant)

PAMPALIPAS NG SAMA NG LOOB by GARY GRANADA

2009-09-11T10:50:00.000-07:00

"...ako ang bayani ng mga bigo. di nagtatampo, di naglalaro, di naninibugho. ako'y walang puso't damdamin, di kailangang malaman mo pa. nakahanda na maglingkod kahit tingin mo pa sa akin pansamantala, pampalipas ng sama ng loob."-GaryGranada

Im into some of his songs these past few days and been humming to this since yesterday, ive just stumbled the video on youtube and found it really interesting. This song is so cute and i didnt find any negativity with the lyrics, just the complexity and laudable expression of his emotions. Lyrics of his songs are very pleasing and some are poetic.

Ive known GaryGaranada as a folk artist wayback 90's,, when i was in my 3rd year high school and became a Fan of Ginebra,where EHEADS and RIVERMAYA+INTROVOYS were hot on the airwaves. He sang the team's theme and i got dismayed (BayangBarrios also have the version of it) .
I dont even appreciate his works before even the melody,also, works of other FOLK-ethnic artist are not in my mind...but that was before!! i will insist..that was BEFORE!!! ;)

Saranggola sa ulan is primarily my favorite.=)

So everytime i am humming it...

i just smile ... =)

Back To SchooL!

2009-09-03T10:12:00.000-07:00

For the 2nd time, i've let again myself be enrolled again on a VocationalSchooL.
Well..at least SCHOOL na cyang matatawag.. unlike before, CENTER lang. ( actually HOUSE lgn cya..sort of a business, they've just gathered 'enrolled' students on their house. Then, nka set-up na ung mgagamit nila dun)

Compared to the other, this is much more motivating since we're having a gradingsystem unlike sa dati,we really dont have!=) so petiks lang until i dropped and committed absences.=) Nahiya na akong bumalik so ive decided to change myschool.

REQUIREMENTS:
scrub suit, magic pillow, BP unit, malong, towelbig and small 4 pcs, hairnet ,tissuepaper, puzzlematplain, oil, powder, lotion, indexcard 1/2, alcohol, whiteshoes.
((kakatawa ugn mga requirements..parang MidWifery ugn course ko!! haahhaha)

Its like submitting myself again on a new path..
If i cant pursue my working career..well then, i will try to have a businees of my own.
That's a plan and primarily ,of course, i have to study that scheme or a business that im trying to put up. Hoping that it should be a success..i know its not that easy yet i am keeping my fingers crossed!

sigh..bahala na..i am doing whats on my mind..hahhaahahhahaahaha=)
i became impulsive again! ;)

ROUNDTRIP!=)

2009-08-29T14:15:00.000-07:00

Wala lng..

i just loooove longbus trip kahit traffic.

Wyl traffic..habang ang mga tao ay nababagot sa pag usad ng bus.. ako naman..

nagkakaron ng "sacred idleness" within me..

nakakapag isip… .

nakkapagasessed.

Habang nakatulala..

Nagiisip ng kung anu ano.. minsan naiiyak,, minsan nmn.. palihim na natatawang mag isa..=)

kaya if i have tym at kung may magyaya.. .. naku,,round trip lang.. ok nko..=)

"roundtrip" tawag nmen ng tropang hayskul kapag trip nameng magbyahe..baba ng terminal tas sakay ulit pabalik. ganun lng.. . palipas oras..=)

Gawain nmen nung hayskul.. kakamiss…=)

A Scene on MyWayHome...

2009-08-20T09:56:00.000-07:00

My heart really breaks when im seeing old people along the streets begging for alms and do anything just to earn money.

I am so upset seeing them buying and selling junks and collecting bottles just to have a meal on their table, just to survive on a certain day! Some I’ve noticed became ‘barker’,,pedicab driver, cigarette vendor and some are just standing and spending time on the streets.

Apparently, became leisure on their part!

Maybe some of those elders don’t deserve that kind of living,even anticipated that lifestyle, and that hurts a lot!

It’s even a distressing scene where you can find them sitting on the corner along the streets,staring on nothing. Teary eyed. ..Helpless....

I am wonderin’ where are their love ones? Do their loveone knows their whereabouts? Where did their children go?

Their children, that supposed to take care of them now... now that they’re old. It’s a sad reality where kids whom their parents once sacrificed their lives will eventually leave and create a family of their own leaving their parents alone ..again!

A thought of a teleserye made me cry where a typical love story of lovers surpassed the hardships of marriage and having a family that made them utter these words:

“Sa simula, tayo lng namang dalawa tlg..hanggang sa huli..tayo pa ding dalawa..”

It’s indeed, a not so pleasing reality for me and it’s a part of being a human. It’s really acceptable in our society and it really happens. It’s just so sad that in the end, it seems that no one loves them anymore...afterall!

Well, life goes on!

PRETENDER

2009-08-18T19:43:00.000-07:00

I dont have satisfaction
I've tried various images
Just for popularity's sake
I let it be done.

Unfortunately, it didnt suit me.
It brought me remorse
A stupid attempt,
That will lead me in regret.

But still, I'm living in falsehood
trying to be you
Im full of hypocrisy
and its time to shed off in this personality
A facade that will bury my souL.
>LeLaY=)

LUMAD Vol.4 No.2
SSCR-Cavite-2002

INSTAMATICKARMA!=)

2009-08-17T12:13:00.001-07:00

AT LONG LAST..I ALREADY HAVE THIS BOOK.

IVE WAITED FOR THIS ,MONTHS AGO
AND NOW I AM HOLDING AND DONE READING
THIS.

ACTUALLY THE ONLY THING IN MY MiND
WAS TO HAVE THIS BOOK SHIPPED

AND ORDER VIA AMAZON.COM.

SINCE IT WOULD BE CHEAPER
IF IT WOULD BE ORDERED
AND SHIPPED IN U.S ,

IVE JUST ASKED A FRIEND TO
HAVE THIS AS A PASALUBONG!!
(yipeeee,,thanks wilson!)
CLICK THIS > JOHN AND MAY PANG LOST WEEKEND

AND WHAT MADE ME WANT THIS BOOK?

WELL, ASIDE THE FACT THAT ITS ALL ABOUT
JOHN?

IVE ALSO WANT TO TAKE A PEEK ON
HOW JOHN AND MAY LOVE AFFAIR
HAPPENED,,

AND TO KNOW MORE ABOUT THAT
SO CALLED
--LOST WEEKEND!=)

MY FAVORITE TRYCYCLE DRIVER..=)

2009-08-13T10:39:00.000-07:00

PRESENTING MY FAVORITE TRYCYCLE DRIVER!! HEHEHEEHE =)

This shot took place..of course, on his tryck on my way home.
Unaware of what is happening, he's kinda annoyed and uncomfortable (i guess..),
while repeated flashing lights covered the 10min ride on his trycycle. ((witch Laugh)) =D

...and what seems made him speciaL?? Well.. ITS HIS HAIR!! i really like his hair, the effortless dread-styled-hair! ;)

**also, this day..ive woke up at 4 in the morning with a friend asking for a TAMBAY somewhere, (kase, brownout daw sa Cavite for 2days),,he can't sleep! So we've just ended eating and spent the rest of the morning in HIDDEN TAPSIHAN. He was so pissed off that he cant do what he usually do like browsing the net,chatting and updating their new website for their soon-to-be-release Cavite newspaper (AWWW..PROMOTION!!hahaha). He have a thought of just playing his guitar since thats the last thing he could do without electricity, unluckily, no strings for his poor guitar! Fortunately, when he got back from tambay , he texted me na me kuryente na daw. ;)

CHOIR DAYS...

2009-08-09T04:34:00.000-07:00

i had them wayback..

and it happened so fast that we’ve separated, maybe they’ve existed in my life for a certain purpose..maybe they are ..as what other people would say.. a heaven sent!

it such a wonderful and great friendship i’ve encountered with them, we had same principles but still, personalities varies.Am so happy during those days that i opted not to attend school and skipped classes and became isolated with my long tym fwends just to spent my time with them..

we’re in a choir..(i’ve been a part of it!hehe), a group composed of those who can reaaaaly sing and those who are frustrated to sing including myself..=)

we practiced together,we cooked,we laughed, we cried, we shared secrets,knowledge, stories, views in life, troubles, crushes, heartaches,we invoked to SupremeBeing together and had this same frequency..

Time moved really so fast, that..obliviously..im losing them.Others gone abroad..some chose to be in a different field and priority,,and the rest are here.Unfortunately we frequently see each other.. if we do we just nod..say hi and hello, sometimes we txt each other..thats all!

SAd to say..the intense emotion of attachment wasnt there anymore..

Apparently, we’ve chose to be on our own will,, and Gods will also!

We’re having now our own lives..

Lastnight until this morning..a thought of them made me expressed this through writing..i still harbor their memories in mymind and never be erased.. ..

they’ve already been a part and parcel of mylife that, if i chose one part of it to come back, i’ll choose to be with them again..even for a moment!

i missed them.. i miss the tambay days till madaling araw..kwentuhan, tawanan..

Probbably they appeared to me for only a season and for a purpose..irealized it just now and for whatever purposed.. iwould say that they fulfilled what i plead for and mypurposed as well..

its a job well done for all of us!

*this was posted on myfriendster blog last june2008 and ive decided to repost this here since Wilson got back from US last week. We've tried to contact some friends for a get-together but only "us" were visible and reachable as of this moment. hehehe..=)

>TO:sheryl,sherani,erina,erica,vangie,kim,jheng,willen,wilshayne,

nolin,wilson,eric,dennis,tuwit,mac,jermaine,dennis ulit,

dominick,jeck.Kung maynakalimutan ako..

naku sori naman, my memory didnt serve me well..memory gap!hehe

..TiLL our neXt tambay!=)

2009-08-02T04:11:00.000-07:00

Just like how ParokyaNiEdgar and KorinaSanchez brags about their longtime friendships with their highschoolfriends,,i am also proud to have myOwn friendship story and still sticking with those people. It's like keeping a heirloom. The more it goes into years, the more its been valued! You may not passed it into next generation, but it would always be remembered and treasured. Im walking blindly not knowing until when will i have this friendship with them..all i know is that, 'tho distance would take us separately, "WE'RE STILL FRIENDS.."

last TAMBAY...a simple despedida for CArolyn! I've been with her since Grade IV. Do the Math, How many years? Im 28 this year. =)
(((center pic : Carolyn-Judy-Cara)))

....last kulitan with her! Where's Cara?Well..she is still..browsing her fezbuk account!Ginugulo nyo eh..=)

Analin AKA "special participation".
She's also one of the originals yet, dont have much time for us..she's been busy with her lovelife! Lately lang, she broke up with her 4years BF so she've had time with us, but not a 6months passed,she've got a new one!!!hehehe..so,, back to her normal life. Palaging absent sa meeting..still..we understand!=)

Karen AKA the DEAN turned THE OWNER of our school...you'll always be missed! Originally,one of the MAINCAST sa mga labuyan. She also left us to Dubai and now she's in Canada.
A RecordBreaker...she's the first one who got married!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!! hahhahahahahahahaa =)

Well..thats's life...DISTANCE will do good sometimes! Lets just go with the flow,and adapt to it!
Someday we'll meet again.. reminiscing what we've been and what we're still having..

WHO KNOWs...DURING THAT TIME..THE MAINCAST WE'RE ALL MARRIED NA!! =)

TERMS TO REMEMBER:
MAINCAST - always present sa 'tambay'
KOOPERATIBA - the term we just keep on mocking each other around since THE MAINCAST were all SINGLE!
SPECIAL PARTICIPATION - missing in action sa mga labuyan =)
SCHOOL - before Karen planned and left us to go abroad, orginally, KOOPERATIBA is not existing even passed thru our mind. Since we're so attached with each other, we've imagined that we're having and one of us owns A school . Karen as the DEan- turned-theOwner...Judy as the Professor...and the rest of us were students categorized also in different levels..
Our SUBJECT matter : ***censored*** ;)

MY OPEN LETTER!=)

2009-07-24T11:07:00.000-07:00

tago bilis...dyahe!! hahahahahaha

i am clueLess of this sudden change. Abruptly you've eased this dullness i am feeling.

how can i grab again those eyes that solely was with me? how can i get back the attention you have patiently for me? it's just a start of questioning myself of having again this so called my-perpetual-routine-of-love.

you've chased me and now...am chasing you!

just let it hang and i'll keep on following you.Don't mind me mydear. i just love the sight of seeing you walking, as if you dont see me looking. Don't look back! It's a gentle way of saying i-like-you-no-more! Just passed me by and let me desire the thought of not having you around for i know that, if i'll make a certain move, you'll fall easily! Don't say any sweet flattering words, even touch me, that won't help! I love your way of making me jealous and making me realized that i am not worthy of your attention. Just keep me yearn for it! I wont ask anyone to give me a spear and stab me because you've certainly doing it!

You've tickled my idle mind!

I am in-love probably in the wrong way. All i know is that, you've made me want you more! I won't suppress it nor let defenses take over. I am liking you in my own special way because i know it's impossible to have you. Intensely i desire you, just don't reciprocate, let it hang and let it pass!

I am used to it and i am a self confessed imposer of pain and pleasure!

See you around...Mydear!=)

ODE TO THE BEAUTIFUL NUDE by PABLO NERUDA

2009-07-21T14:38:00.000-07:00

With a chaste heart
With pure eyes I celebrate your beauty
Holding the leash of blood

So that it might leap out and trace your outline
Where you lie down in my Ode
As in a land of forests or in surf
In aromatic loam, or in sea music

Beautiful nude
Equally beautiful your feet
Arched by primeval tap of wind or sound
Your ears, small shells
Of the splendid American sea
Your breasts of level plentitude
Fulfilled by living light
Your flying eyelids of wheat
Revealing or enclosing
The two deep countries of your eyes

The line your shoulders have divided into pale regions
Loses itself and blends into the compact halves of an apple
Continues separating your beauty down into two columns of
Burnished gold
Fine alabaster
To sink into the two grapes of your feet
Where your twin symmetrical tree burns again and rises
Flowering fire
Open chandelier
A swelling fruit
Over the pact of sea and earth

From what materials
Agate?
Quartz?
Wheat?
Did your body come together?
Swelling like baking bread to signal silvered hills
The cleavage of one petal
Sweet fruits of a deep velvet
Until alone remained
Astonished
The fine and firm feminine form

It is not only light that falls over the world spreading inside your body Yet suffocate itself So much is clarity Taking its leave of you As if you were on fire within

The moon lives in the lining of your skin. --->PABLO NERUDA

..JUST READ THIS BEAUTIFUL POEM ON THE PAGES OF INQUIRER. AYAN, NAINLOVE TULOY AKO SA MGA WORKS NYA.

I LOVE THE LAST STANZA!

Anung KaLandian iTo?Emo ka?

2009-07-20T21:08:00.000-07:00

Gusto ko ng tapusin ang oras.

Gusto ko ng lisanin ang kinalulugaran ko,

Para saken, isa itong problemang dapat tapusin.

Di tapat patagalin.

Dapat tuldukan.

Di ko na kaya at matagaltagal pa ang oras.

Pinipigilan dumaloy ang luhang kanina pa

Nanggingiming pumatak.

Kung bakit ba di kita pinigilan?

At di man lang nilapitan?

Hanggang sa nngyare na..

Huli na ang lahat.

Paglingon ko wla ka na

Di man lang ngpaalam

Di man lang ngsabe!

Hanggang saan ko kikimkimin ang iniwang damdamin.

Superhumane Effort!=)

2009-07-19T20:18:00.000-07:00

Aaaaaaargh..hard to define yet its here again. So, what will
I do..

AHMMMMMM…

just
put my headset on then at least even for a while it eliminates the struggling emotion within.
It would take 30mins then im ok na.
I’ll
get mymug then pour some coffee tapos,,kelangan bittersweet.
I’ll
do this,,freewriting. I’ll steal only fewminutes of my time writing here.
Tas work
mode ulit. Work mode..workmode.till I get busy..eventually i’ve help
myself to get my attention be diverted.

yeah,right..a superhumane effort just to
brush aside all
this. Para-paraan nlng!

I know…few months or weeks..days will passed then its all
over again. It will pass..manalig ako! Manalig akoooooooo!! Hahahaha =)

ISN'T LIFE STRANGE?! (well..am faLLen!)

2009-07-17T09:12:00.000-07:00

AM A NOT-SO-LICENSED-PAPARAZZI!! BWAHAHAHA

Feelings were suppressed, minds complexity troubled my heart recalling back those moments..

Nobody would realize as people stare, as if they would mind..

Encapsulated thoughts need to be recognize,

and i would be happy..

just to be acknowledge..

and il be thankful..

if you care!

BROWNOUT! NAGEEMOTE!!

2009-07-16T14:00:00.000-07:00

buong gabi kong pinaglalamayan ang isang buong kandila,

kapiling ang katahimikan at sa nakapisang kalungkutan.

Di mapigilan ang pagbagsak.

Pinaglaruan at hinayaang matunaw.

nakakapagod!

S U R V E Y (MyveryOwnVersion)

2009-07-16T13:26:00.000-07:00

dahil sa puro survey ang laman ng bulletin sa FWENDSTER … hweto gumawa ako ng sarile ko..go with the flow!! hahahaha =)

kanino ka natutong magfwendsteriing thing? >> iknew this thing to Dylan,,sabe nya magregister daw ako..masaya daw,tho im not into this kind of online stuff before..
sino ang kaunaunahang nagtesti sayow?>>..cya din,, checkitout! Naging mgkachikahan kme nitong gerL nato for a month,ansaya!(ewankolangkungkilalanyapako..hehe) Simpleng babae plng cya nun,ngyn sikat n cya.
ano ang iyong matuturing na guilty-pleasure? >>recently,nung napatambay ako sa bahay ng 1month,naku..nannuod ako ng Wowowee tas isang lingo kong nging crush si Willie,,tas nnuod ako ng HanaKimi ung sa ch.2..tas crush ko si Dok. Tas dretso BigBrother ang pnnuod..hanepz..kapamilyangkapamilya..hahaha
any frustrations? >>OOmeron eh gusto kong libutin ng buong pilipinas,nd gusto kong mgexcel s mg interest ko: maggitra,magsult,mgpinta etc..tipong numpisahan ko lng Tas di ko nmn ntapos. Plage akong gnun,,msatisfy ko lng ung urges to learn...=)
anong gusto mong pag aralan? >> mg massage therapy..ggwin kong sideline.hahaha
kamusta ang self-esteem mo? >> so far..not good! Nagffalter..pabago bago.
inlab kaba ngyn? >> oo naman..in lab ako at soobrang attach sa mga interest ko..
anugn interest mo? >>makinig ng musikang gusto ko,,maggitara sa bahay,,magsulat ng kugn anung naiisip..lumaboy..tumambay..
single ka ba?bkit? >>oo,,am single by choice kase no choice..hahaha=D
gusto/ayaw mo mag asawa? Bkit ulit? >>as of now..malakeng ayoko!bkit? aba..mahirap ang buhay ngyn..sarile ko nga dko na kayang buhayin, magdadagdag pko..at pangit na ang mundo para tirhan….either il grow up alone or il adapt a child.=)
plastic ka ba? >>actually,im not! pero may mga instances na i have to..and you’ll never know ,even feel ,that i am…
i-love-myself-statement mo? (para sa mga mababa ang self confidence),,kung mataas na..hindi ito nababagay na tanong. >> IF I HAVE THIS STRONG WILL OVER SOMETHING..I COULD DO ITAND I COULD GET IT..byhooked or by crooked..harharhar..=)
pleaser ka ba? >> yup..specially if i like the person,.BUT kapag no response at all, I’ll not exert a superhumane effort anymore..hehe..i’ll ditch him/her off!! the nerve!!! hahahaha=D

ANGER MANAGEMENT PART1

2009-07-14T10:56:00.000-07:00

people might misconstrued me as a person, mylifestyle or myprinciple..

i dont owe you a single word or even defend mypart, i 'll just let it be!

you’re not in myworld anyway..

hindi nmn karagdagan sa pagkatao ko ang mga reaksyong nakukuha ko o makukuha ko..ni pagtyagaang kausapin ang uri mo,,dko gagawin!

tara….kape nlng..=D

E S C A P E !

2009-07-14T10:37:00.000-07:00

its sad that im looking forward to mylastresort

am tired and dissapontments prevails

im weary and none of any positivity over mymind.

its a need to find my way home.. .

and love isnt my lair!

Escape.. .. … ..

WAITING SHED

2009-07-14T10:28:00.000-07:00

me kkwento lang ako..
pauwe ako galing sa tropa..
intay ako sasakyan sa waiting shed,,
tas may dumating na babae,,
maluha luha cya tas bbulong bulong dun sa shed..
tipong naiiinis..e
wan ko kung kkilala nya ung matandang cigarette vendor na nasa gilid ng shed kase nag uusap sila eh.. narinig ko nlng sabe nung mama dun sa babae:

"kaaway mo na naman tatay mo?"

tas sabe nung babae.. "oo,nakakainis..nilayasan ko nga eh"

tas sagot ulit nung vendor.. "Naku,ganyan talaga..may edad na tatay mo..ineng,tiis lang..mahirap mawalan ng magulang,ako nga eh..sa tanda kong to..nakakahiya mang sabihin ngyn ko lng naintindihan na mahirap mawalan ng magulang…."

Yung babae..maluhaluha pa din..

Ako..sumakay nako ng bus..diko kinaya ang emote! =)

A BATTLE

2009-07-13T11:51:00.000-07:00

i knew this eversince..i’ve felt this 7years ago.
Emptiness surrounds me,melancholy was anticipated.
I wasnt able to survive this emotion until my superego reigns.

i’ve fought the battle..my id was defeated..

And now..im facing again this stupidity.

and i knew the culprit of these hostility.

and im blaming My own "worldly self desires"..

i dont like to live this way.

and i hope i’ll won the battle.

This isnt my ideal self.. ..

DEVIRGINIZED I (repost)

2009-07-12T17:59:00.001-07:00

Sabe masaket daw…

Hindi naman.

( Mega tanggi p nga
ako..pero wala..sumuko din.)

Impulsive kase..wala eh..pinasok ko to..bahala na…=)

Siyempre masaket … ..sa Ego. . but, it still differs on how you handle
situations.

It’s so intense that I have to write it over here.

Ansaya lang kase..overwhelming ang feeling..its my first
time to be criticized personally sa larangan ng literatura (awwww naman!parang may napatunayan na??)
hehe=)

Kababawan sa iba..pero sa ken..kakaiba.. =D

Sabe nga nila ..“
you should know how to detached yourself over your works. If someone criticizes your work, it doesn’t necessarily mean
that it’s you,personally,that has been criticized.”

Cge..cge..tama..tama! =d

I was devirginized. Kung mga katulad lang nila ang
mang-ookray at kakatay ng gawa ko, ok lang. mas gusto ko kung sila. well-experienced sila eh =)

… .. ..

“o ano tutula ka o mgkkwento?”

sabe ko..” magkwento na lang..”

“Ano?? ambilis mo nmng sumuko?”

(kaso..di ko sila na pleased,,abstract daw.) =(

Anyway,Gusto kong maulit…kaso they’re busy ata,ang gagaling nila sooobrang
nirerespeto ko sila. Daming learnings! salamat.=)

UNREQUITED LOVE

2009-07-12T17:56:00.000-07:00

I don’t have any outlet that’s why im writing it over here,again.

If only I could burst all these and cry.

And I’ve felt so useless!

That someone ive cared for is now in pain,

Trying to be calm and not shown of his emotions

And that makes me more upset.

To see him feared of not expressing it all out gets me so uneasy.

I could feel melancholy all over him, emptiness.

His gloomy eyeS wants to cry but he can’t.

he doesn’t even speak.

I could only see him from here where ive seated.

His head, leaning on his desk. He cant work.

Ive tried to talked to him, ask him to go out, but he resisted.

I don’t know how to approached or make a move.

I never used to see him on that situation.

So helpless!

I can’t say that ive pity him.

Im so upset just like him.

For in any reason that he cant confide it to me.

Cos maybe, i can’t do anything for him to be happy

He don’t even need me, im just nothing!

And that hurts me more!

If only I could do something just to see him happy,

even ifsomeone poke a joke out of me,

or be the subject of all those mockery, then,

I’ll let it be just to him smiling.

I’ll do anything, just to see him wearing a smile even for a while, even if it takes me too long to do it…

I will!

TanghalingTapat!

2009-07-12T17:50:00.000-07:00

my guitar is myfriend in silence.

it made me realize that, ‘tho im in sorrow,

there’s an assurance that in every stroke of myhand,

strumming creates rhythm.

a rhythm though i know, will go nowhere, still, it has to be an ending!

A good melody or .. . maybe not.

Bad melody that will teach me to improve and fix some of the clutter i’ve

previously made.

letter from clementine=(

2009-07-11T09:59:00.000-07:00

AS IM HAVING THIS SACRED IDLENESS (PETIKS MODE!HAHAHA) HERE ,

IM VORACIOUSLY READING ANY ARTICLES OF MYCURRENT FAVE COMPOSER-LOCAL MUSICIAN-MYCRUSH-TURNED LENNONMORISSEYsCOPYCAT CLEMENTINE..

THOUGH ORANGE&LEMONS DISBANDED WAY BACK 2007,

AM STILL TRYING TO FOLLOW WHERE CLEMENS PATH IS GOING RIGHT NOW. IM A FAN ALTHOUGH I DONT HAVE YET ANY PICS OR MEMORABILIAS FROM HIM.

THE NOW DEFUNCT ORANGE&LEMONS IS MYFAVE UNTIL NOW.THEIR COLLABORATIVE TALENTS MADE ME ADORE THE BAND. THEIR MUSICAL SIMILARITIES TO 50s-60s SONGS AND TO MY FAVE MUSICIANS LIKE BEATLES,JOHN LENNON, MADE ME LIKE THEM MORE..

WELL..JUST SHARING THIS LETTER FROM CLEMENTINE THAT IVE JUST BROWSED ON THE NET. IKNOW,NOT ANYBODY WHO'LL READ THIS COULD RELATE UNLESS YOU'RE A FAN! =)

Dear Friends,

The recent ballyhooed misunderstanding between me and my band mates

including No Seat Affair and Universal Records has yet to reach a

conclusion.

I'm sorry if it took me a while to post anything official since I am

still trying to assess the situation and settle our differences. Time

is a very important element. I assure you that this is not a publicity

gimmick.

However, our scheduled performances in the United States will push

through and I will be joining the band on stage once more which I hope

will delight many of our fans in the West Coast.

Here are the tour schedules:

July 29 - East County Performing Arts, San Diego

August 4 - The Grove, Aneheim, Los Angeles

August 10 - Solitas Restaurant, San Francisco

August 11 - Plaza Hotel Ballroom, Las Vegas

We will be performing alongside MYMP.

Our album Moonlane Gardens is still available and I hope, despite of

the dust-up, you and your friends/family will not deprive yourselves

of that unique listening experience and pleasure one can only get from

Orange & Lemons. After all we are only but human and we do make

mistakes as well. Mistakes that are sometimes huge and there is

nothing left to do but accept, pick ourselves up, learn from it and

be a better person.

To end this I would like to share a few lines i wrote and read in the

recording of our song "Tomorrow" from the album Strike Whilst The Iron

Is Hot:

Look into the eyes of the Present

And anticipate the jollities and challenge tomorrow could bring.

The Past is unimportant

There will be time to recall

The enigmatic and beautiful process called Life

When you realize everything indeed do happen for a reason.

Much love and fervor,

Clementine

Orange & Lemons

S KE P T I C I S M

2009-06-26T13:24:00.000-07:00

John Lennon have said that..

“God is a concept..”

Is it the same notion the catholic pope asserted that..

“Heaven is a state of mind..” ?

I dont know..

all i know is that upon my birth ..

God exists!

As early as i have my awareness of going to church.,

Supreme Being was there.

Deep within my thoughts and understanding..

Heaven was up there..

But never i imagined to be there for i know that i’ll never belong..

If hell is true..the conventional torture and sea of fire,

Much more i dont belong for i know that once in my life..i do good!

but i am not perfect as my God wants me to be..

Sometimes..

I thought of living without heaven and hell,

Even principles.

Maybe, living simply in this world till your life ends.

Enjoy the resources and not abused it..

No more pride and greed.

Living with positivity without self desires.

If there’s another earth out there?

or If there’s another life after death?

i dont know..

never i thought of having another life after dying.

I’ll just accept that its a perpetual departure.

To let go off the senses..

Death is infinity.

if skepticism is a sin..

then i’ve sinned!

HUWELL..AM SINGLE!!!=)

2009-06-25T15:21:00.000-07:00

Honestly..it pisses me off when some one asks me about marriage stuff or getting-married. Its not that I dont have anything for it to be answered. Its just that…
I don’t want to talk about it. Neither I planned it nor I’ve got prepared for that day. It just keeps me w0nder, do these people find any other questions? Its so annoying…it seems that I have to be hurry…

i feel so pressured tho’ and I hate that!

I don’t know…

They say that I should have to, and give me these reasons :

1. so there would be people who will take care of me when I get old.

2. its fulfilling to be a mom!

3. lelay, if you don’t get married, you’ll not realize it as of now,, and regret it after all.

…AND THEN WHAT? Will I push myself to get married? (eh wala ngang boypren?!hahahaha)

Seriously…as I recall my childhood. Never I dreamed of walking on a red carpeted aisle while my groom awaits me on exchanging ‘I do’s’…never I dare to dreamed! Relatives have said that “naku si aleli,magmmadre yan! Mana yan sa lola nya.taong simbahan”.

Yes, I actively participated on church activities even when I was young BUT im not wearing a Halo! What I mean..is…maybe..i really am a destined maiden.

A single woman, maybe by choice coz I really don’t have a choice!! Hahahahaha…

Anyway… im not closing any doors here…i might saying it just now, i may still be an easy-go-lucky woman around…and am enjoying my singlehood, being with friends and family! Anyway..im only 26 turning 27..not that old, right?!who knows?!

ALL I WANT ARE THESE :(optional)

1. if giving a chance…I will marry someone who is a friend, a good conversationalist because when we get old I know, all we have to do is talk,,talk,,and talk. No more romantic lust, only reminiscing the years passed by. We should have same interest and has a sense of humor. He may not be a very good looking person BUT someone who knows how to handle and carry himself as well..How i wish i could meet a man same as kikobrew.(i’ve never done this but myguiltypleasure now is to read his blogs,im jealous with her gf ,swerte! i really envied this couple sooo much!).Tas sa photos nya..inisketch ko cya..check it out!! hwooohooo!!click here >>http://profiles.friendster.com/44325224
2. if not give a chance to have a family, I’ll adapt a child because never I’ve planned to conceive a child. I don’t know… I can’t explain…it’s not selfishness tho’. Im just thinking my child’s welfare if I’ll bring him out of the earth. The earth is not a good shelter for him, it doesn’t even offer a good environment nowadays. I feared of not giving him a good education, good health..etc.So better I’ll adapt a child who was already forsaken by their immediate family. Para bawas na din sa populasyon.hehe
3. Or…I’ll commit myself to a friend who is willing to commit himself/herself to me. We’ll just live, rent a house, go out, share secrets/opinions just like what a common friends do. (just like living in a BigBrother house,simply,just like that!)For me…it’s the same as having a family of my own. If both of us got old. We could take good care of each other!

Anyway…I’ll end this…who knows,right?! =)

JOHN LENNON-MAY PANG LOST WEEKEND =)

2009-06-25T13:56:00.000-07:00

UPON KNOWING THE LOVESTORY OF MAY PANG AND JOHN LENNON,
IVE DISCREETLY YEARN TO HAVE THAT KIND-OF-STORY ON MY OWN.
TO HAVE IT WITH SOMEONE THAT I COULD CALL.. JOHNLENNON!

ALTHOUGH MAY PANG EXISTED ON THE DWINDLING BUT CLIMACTIC EPISODE OF ONO-JOHN RELATIONSHIP,
I COULD STILL SAY THAT ‘THEM’ WAS SWEETER THAN WHAT YOKO AND JOHNs HAD (NOT TO MENTION THAT I REALLY DON’T LIKE YOKO FOR JOHN.. UNTIL NOW AM STILL FIGURING OUT WHY)

WHY DID I SAY SWEETER? I DON’T KNOW..MAYBE..’THEM’ APPEARED UNEXPECTEDLY AND ALTHOUGH IT LASTED FOR A YEAR AND A HALF,
THAT ,, THROUGH ‘KNOWN’ STORIES,COULD BE CONSIDERED SO SINCERE.
WELL, WITH THIS, AM NOT SHARING MY PERSPECTIVE OF A SO CALLLED SINCERE AND PERFECT RELATIONSHIP ITS JUST THAT
IVE FOUND EXCITEMENT UNTO THEIR ”LOST WEEKEND” AS WHAT OTHERS COULD TAGGED THEIRS.

W H A T E V E R !

AM JUST SOOO EXCITED ON MYVERY OWN COPY OF THAT BOOK COURTESY OF WILSON!!
HAHAAHAHHA..GOOOOO WILSON!!! HOPE YOU’LL BE READING THIS SOOOON!!! =)

THIS BOOK RELEASED JUST LAST YEAR . .SO ,, ITS JUST NEW,RIGHT?! HWOOOW!!! =)

HOWs YOUR BOSS!=)

2009-06-25T13:24:00.000-07:00

After ive graduated from college, I’ve started and really tried to penetrate the Corporate World, its been a dream come true for me during those days, dealing with different people, having my own desk, and become an Office ‘bum’ staff! =)
Part of being one of those bums was having your so-called ‘’hard-to-reach-BUT-you-have-to-deal-with-them-everyday’’ Boss. Those that will scold at you early in the morning upon seating on your desk, asked you to do this and do that, then after yelling at you and letting your Esteem to go way, way down below sea level, they’re also the one who lift it up back and give their superb, inspirational and uplifting advise based on their experienced.
Here are some of those advise I’ve learned (oh really!? Did I learn something from them? Believe it or not, I’ve took those even with my eyes closed. In Fairness..hehe )

Boss (OJT)

“puro ka rock music..nu ba yan! di bali pagtanda mo llipas din yan!”

>>tlga?! sana nga..am 27 na//di pa din lumilipas,,di na nga lang nkakanuod ng gig..pero mam ngiba ako gn genre..ethnic music nmn! llipas din ba to??hehe

Boss#1 :
“KAYA KA NGA TINUTURUAN EH PARA MATUTO”
>>hmmm,huweyt..since this is myblog, I’ll tell you what happened here. Have you experienced what they have called ‘information overload”?Eh dko na carry eh..salita pa ng salita…sabe ko Mam di ko napo maabsorb, go pa din cya, tas ambilis bilis, eh buti ba kung ako lang ang nagrereklamo eh madame pa la kame..i’ve felt nauseatic during that time, nkkulangan nko ng carbon dioxide..konti nlng hihimatayin nko..ayaw pa din tumigil..kaya the next day..back to zero. Hinayaan ko nlg magsermon. Hehe=)

Boss#2
“WALA NA AKONG NARINIG SA YO KUNDI TROPA TROPA..DUMIRETSO KA NG BAHAY..TIME WILL COME WHEN YOU GET OLD, MAWAWALA LAHAT SILA SAYO..MAKAKALIMUTAN KA DIN NILA”
>>Bali,uwian nkse,,last day na kase, Friday. So, tendency tanungan ng mga pupuntahan, eh din man ako magimik na tao,so un ang nbanggit ko sa opismeyt ko na sa hindi inaasahan eh narinig ng Boss ko. Huwell…what can I say…”Based on experience ba yan mam?!si mam,Bitterness!: hehe =)

Boss#3
“TAO KO CYA,,I KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY STAFF, I KNOW HOW TO DISCIPLINE HER”
>>hhehehe,sabe ko nga Alam mo eh, di nmn ako tumututol..=)
(pero anyway, ako ang sangkot ditto, me palpak lang akong ginawang report tas medyo ayun napagalitan,nasigawan..tas me mga taong ngreact..tas ayun..ayan ung sinagot nya. Sabe na eh hwag na kayo magreact..alm nya ginagawa nya…harinawa!hehe=)

Boss#3 ULET
“IN THIS TYPE OF INDUSTRY, YOU SHOULD KNOW HOW TO PLAY POLITICS and YOU SHOULD ALSO have to KNOW HOW TO SEPARATE YOUR EMOTIONS FROM WORK. WELL GIRLS..YOU SHOULD HAVE TO,,IF YOU WANT TO GO HIGHER FROM YOUR POST.”
>>hmmm..in fairness itong boss ko na ito eh BOSS na maituturing tlg, may sense nmn togn sinabe nya kumbaga base lang siguro sa realidad na nngyyare sa corporate world. Pero wala eh,,dko kaya..pumasok lang sa tenga ko tas lumabas din sa kabila. I don’t have any hunger for success,for as long as I have a work, and im earning money..im okay. Kaya cguro huweto,,nanatiling Staff pa din ngyon..hehehe (Actually sobrang laid-back lang at carefree kaya nanatiling staff) hehehe.

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SIGH! Leader vs. Boss is another Topic to discuss. Huwell..a thought of them passed through my idle mind.hehe
Boss’s will always be Boss, They really do know what to do. You just have to follow OR else you’ll be out!=)