♥Featured Photos♥

A month ago, got an email invitation on this website from a person named Kris. I never knew him, so just wondering how and where did he got myemail. So i still proceed and checked the site, well,its all about Photography!!! Not bad..so i've registered and Uploaded some of the shots ive captured specially those out-of-town pics.

After few days, Ive received email again that some of my uploaded pics was on the FEATURED PHOTOS section. Funny 'tho! Altho its not a popualr site..T'was such a good feeling to received Comments, appreciation even criticisms from those who are knowledgeable. The fact that, i dont even know any technical rules about photography , i only have the appreciation! =)
(actually ive also received comments from people who i could say ..a reliable AND credible one. I am receiving compliments like 'You really have an Eye For Photography, why dont you study?'


you could take a look over here, just click here=)


another one ! CLICK HERE=)



i could say that i am an Amateur and lookign forward on taking a short course about Photography ,probably, when i reach 33yearsold. I will also buy my very own Professional Camera that i am drooling on until now..=))

Why dont you register ,too..It will give you some Fun , that's if, your in to photography and enjoying taking pics.

MassageTherapySchooLing

ive already graduated and still waiting for my Certificate and looking frward on another Tutorial Class about Shiatsu and thai massage,after that class, i'll be on my HomeServiceMassage Biz..hehehe=)

I just want to share these pics :








*******PRACTICUM********


GO LANG ..KAHIT UNG IBA DI PA NALILIGO..HEHEHEHEHE =)






si Konsehal.

si Mam at si Brgy Captain.

Payment for rendering service...FOOD! hehehe=)

whew! super pagod! puyat..oiliness! whew! =))

PAIN

a friend have asked me why not sharing sentiments and sort of painful events that ive been through lately.

its just because i am person who can share emotions when it became intense and felt that there's a need to burst it out.

it's not a need that every detail should be shared.

all these years,i've just noticed that im already used to it.
i am already used on helding pain within and still depending on healing it within.

i've endured all those...and surpassed it ,afteraLL!


(googled pic..heheheeh..backPAIN kase eh..back pain lang..hehhehehehe )

Eto na Ang Diwata!

natisod ko ang Tulang ito sa blog ni KA PETE, ibinabahagi ko lamang..bbihira din kase akong makagusto ng tula,mapa ingles man o sa wikang tagalog. Isa lgn ang nasambit ko...

KUNIN MO DIWATA ANG MGA TAKSIL NA BINATA!!!IPAIN!!IALAY!!!HAHAHAHAHA
( witch laugh..hahahahahaha )

MARIANG MAKILING

Nasa gubat muli ang ating diwata.
Managhoy man tayo'y hindi siya lalabas.
Ang ibig niya'y isang taksil na binata.

Pagsapit ng dilim ang mga bintana
ay dapat isara; dapat nang mag-ingat:
nasa gubat muli ang ating diwata.

Walang masabi ang mga manghuhula,
kahit sino'y walang magawa, sapagkat
ang ibig niya'y isang taksil na binata.

Matapos ang unos, sino ang gagala
upang aluin ang mga sawimpalad?
Nasa gubat muli ang ating diwata

at ngayon ay hindi na nababahala
kung ang mangangaso'y maligaw ng landas.
Ang ibig niya'y isang taksil na binata.

Laganap sa buong bayan ang balitang
tulala siyang lagi't tuhod ang kayakap.
Nasa gubat muli ang ating diwata
pagkat ang ibig ay taksil na binata.

--JOSE F. LACABA

Status Message

He's the reason why i am awake right now and woke up from a dream. He's a reason why i am doing this free-writing...
A dream that made me think of him again, it should'nt be that way for we know that we really are having our own liFe.

I woke and get off from bed and an urgency of seeing at least any link via web that could connect me to him, made me do this just to pacify this feeling...

Its been so long..i reallly wonder why his face appeared in mydreams this past few days. It seems so reaL.it's a Lucid Dream

Yeah., right! I keep on murmuring questions like.. How is he and Where is he now? I've tried to visit her account in Friendster but its not even updated. Still, a family man on his account. A pinch of 'kilig' visited me again when i still saw my account on his 'FeaturedFriends',after ive added him up, at least seeing me on that space eases this Sadness (yeah, ive searched and addded his account, pathetic, right?).
A man with few friends but i know he really is satisfied with his life! I never thought that he could make his life that way and with him living on his own world,i could say that i would'not be remembered. Its really impossible that a little touch of myFace would pass his busy mind. Neither, wonder where am i nor recall the old feelings.

A deep-seated sigh!

If onLy i could rewind those days. If only i could bring up same feelings again,so many 'if's' and it just ended there. It's only right now i'd realize that i've should gave importance on that relatonship. Why didn't i? maybe i was young way back then...the emotional attachment i've had with him was so intensed that i got feared for the feeling itself and gave high regard with my pride.

Ive tried to search his name on Facebook, luckily, his name appeared, having mutual friends. It seems that's it not updated , too. But i am seeing updated pictures. He's been to different places meeting lots of girls ,obviously, because of his work and it shows that he's a succesful man.He really seems so happy and i envy him.,i also envy the woman behind of all his happiness, ive never envied people this way and it feels that i am hurting..

WeLL..i am living in my superficial and fantasy world. Creating my own story within. I've really wanted seeing him again. It's unexplainable and undone. Its really hard to be trap on a feeling that you may say 'unfinish'. It will continuosly haunt you and affect some events in ur life. And what is happening with me right now is an Episode, i hope that its just a mood!

Well.. after writing this,i'll turn myLaptop off and jusT sit here and with this silence.. hoping that even in memories, i can still be with him. Its not a ''Period'' event in my Life right now..it's just a Coma., its undone and I am looking forward..i am..looking..forward..come what may!

MyFirstBlog for this Year

i reaLLy dont have any Halo, i could say that i am really a sinner,but seeking Spirituality is really on my system. Since i was a chiLd, ive been actively participating on catholic activities. Ive joined Hijas de Maria and Legion of Mary, regularly went on attending mass every sundays, and consistently visited the VigiL and confession area. But as time went on,sometimes, not what you knew before, would be stiLL your belief as you grew up. SeLf-exploration helped me on this and passed my Adolescent years. I've been on what they've called struggles of teenage years and struggles within. Questions of Existentialism and introspection played on my mind. ,and i could say that, people do need guidance sometimes. Its really a Need.Anyways, that's usual, i guess! =)

...and that's how it was started. =)
..started reading the bible, reading articles of different beliefs and listening to different preachers. ive been fascinaTed with Buddhism but leave it just like that till ive found him. Never ive treated and looked to him only as a preacher himself. he's been a good teacher, too. he's been well versed in the bible. Just recently he brought an International award from a popular online web contest, and his blog has been candidate and fortunately won over those 70,000 nominees, including Paolo Coelhos blogsite. YOu will learn a lot from this site,spiritually speaking. Just feel free on browsing and reading articles from it.
'Tho when speaking of this book, The Bible,it would be strictly spiritual,but it's not, i regard this as a regular Book, just like i am reading Paolo Coelho's stuff. ive learned from the bible anything from History and Science. It tackles everything, music, love stories, homosexualities, emotions, vices, friendship,psychology..etc. Lots of categories!! Its just that, you have to be guided, otherwise, you will misconstrued details.

i am fond of the new testaments for it really discusses how early christians were during those days.Eventually, i know that i could perfectly followed rules but sometimes ive really felt so weak. ..

I also do like different quotes on the Proverbs for it really quoted different learnings in life but i havent tried to finish reading it until now and am lookign forward on buying another one, gusto ko ugn may english translations para masaya. hehe=)

Devirginized Part II-B

TADAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! Ako with judy who took these pics in the hospital. She have also decided to spent er night and slept there. Kawawa daw kase ako..walang kasama!! =)

Cara was the first who've visited me. Aside from Kapamilyas ive had visitors aside from those who've texted me. ung iba, kapag daw ng 1 week nako sa hospital sila dadalaw..hehheheh=)
Thanks also to Richard, Jeff,Ynah, Lyna, Jane, and TL Ryan. I really appreciate the 'effort'.. I really do.
After that morning, ive realized that i dont have sleep yet. i am awake since the other day pa..i've got worried with myplatelet counts and bloodpressure. Bka lalong bumaba! Que Horror.. So ive decided and pushed my eyes closed and let myself to sleep at 2pm and i still have to count Sheeps just to get hypnotized and got tired.

HOurs passed and All i know was i am almost..ALMOST on my deep sleep.. when, ive heard two KNOCKS on the door at biglang may pumasok!!!

"GOOOooOOoooOOOOD AFTERNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON MAM!!!!: (hightone and smiling..)

"I AM LISA FROM COCCOLIFE PO!!! Ay, wala po kayong kasama? kakalungkot nmn,kakaiba to sa mga nkita ko, ung iba po kase may mga bantay..anlungkot nmn. Pero saglit lng to mam, explain ko lng po ung about sa Card, ugn mga kailangn po just in case mapalabas na po kayo bukas...."

AKO : ok miss huweyt lng..nagulat kase ako sa pagpasok mo eh. ansakit ng ulo ko..huweytlng ha..huweyt..few minutes.
(i didnt know if ive sounded sarcastic but she responded, still smiling..que baribaridad hija!)

sa totoo lng..dun ko lng naexperience ung bigla kang naistorbo sa pag tulog aT naunahan nya ung pagbalik ng ulirat ko bago man lng sya pumasok!!!Ang saket sa ulo..sus!



Ive anticipated that i wont enjoy my stay on that 4cornered-room, pero di den, inururat ko nlng ung mga tao dun. Every now and then, Nurse came over to get sample blood. , tamang chickahan kame nung OJT na nurse dun ..we've tlaked about nursing stuffs and ah uhmm, i forgot his name ,anyway ,and ung Janitor, mabait den! He have even offered his help if i am needing something. Naawa kase sila saken wala daw akogn kasama..hahahaha. I should have a BF daw..hw0ooosho0oooo..di den..hahaha=))



(it looks like that im in a PEDIA ward. Pero, hindi eh..un tlg ung room nila. Bedsheet were changed everyday, still, cartoon character pa den ung design. hehe)

So tiLL then, ive just included this experience on myblog since this is one of those "first time" of myLife.

Devirginized Part II-A

After that Saturday's Gettogether with our team..ive never had enough sleep and ive never felt OK. Sunday have passed without going out, and monday too. Buti n lng, im on-leave ng Lunes. Then, tuesday came. Pasok nmn sa skul ng hapon. After class and got home, i went to my room then ,tried my very best to sleep since i still have work that night. All i know is that i am so tired during that weekend, ( ireally dont even know why kase ive always been 'Laboy') untill after myclass. when i woke up..i've reallyfelt so exhausted and weary..seems that ive never had enough energy to get-up and call to the office and tell them that i cant make it up to work..but i did! ive called,of course,using mymobilephone. Buti nlng may load..hehehe..=)

THen..ive closed my eyes...


WEdnesday. All i knw was, ive had Fever the other night even on that last weekend. 'Tho i was'not able to get mytemperature on those days. I knew within that i am sick. So i need to go to the hospital for my Med cert. The nearest is a public hospital that is not even accredited buy our CompanyMedCard, but all i need was a MEDCERT for my SL. So i went there alone. i walked and looked for a trycycle just to get there. So exhausted..Ive tooked my Laboratory exm. it tooked me few minutes just to go back and forth for all those requirements..and so with that ive really felt that im losing my spare energy..but not to the point of fainting mydear! hehehe. =)

So after the sort-of laboratory exam, ive got the result and guess what?!
I've HAD DENGUE AND UTI!!!! with those expLanation that the doctor have had told me, all those i wasnt able to absorbed even understood.hahahahaha..Nanlalambot nkase ako..need ko ng magpahinga..ALL I'VE NEEDED WAS A MEDCERT FOR MY ABSENCES. AYOKONG MAGPACONNFIIIIIIIIIIIIIINED!!!!!! but the doctor was so persistent and she've really insisted na kelangn ko daw maconfined because of myplatelet counts. It really decreases daw. Ive just told her that i' should transfer to the other hospital which is Divine Grace. eh kase wala nkong maisip na accredited hospital near on our place. So ang ending... i went home again, alone.and decided not to tell my parents about my medical result.

soooobrang pagod!! all ive needed was rest..

10:30pm
NANAY: knock..knock..O, leli.. kumusta ang pakiramdm mo..ngpatingin ka ba sa doktor para me mapakita ka sa opis?
AKO : oo
NANAY : O ano sabe? anu bng nararamdaman mo?
AKO : La lang..me lagnat ako..nanalalambot ako. sabe lng uminom lng daw ako ng gatorade, yun lng..
NANAY: gnun ba o di cge..kumain k muna d2.
AKO : (no reaction)

after a few minutes....

AKO : Nanay!!!! tawag mo ko ng trycyccle...
NANAY: o baket? san ka ppunta?
AKO : magpapaconfine ako??sabe kase ng doctor me DENGUE daw ako at UTI eh!! eh ayoko magpconfine dun, pinipilit ako eh eh ayoko nga.. punta nlng ko ng divinegrace. anung bang mgnda ngyn nlng ako mgpaconfine o bukas? blah..blah..blah..yada..yada..yada.. (almost panicked..)
NANAY: huh? eh me pasok ako bukas eh,..
AKO : tatawag nyo lng ako ng trycycle..di nyo nmn ako sasamahan sa ospital eh..mgpapaconfine ako..MAGPAPACONFINE AKO!!!!!!
NANAY : (no reaction)

after a 5mins...

NANAY: o leli..magbihis kana..kunin mo na ang mga gamit mo at ayan na ang trycycle..
AKO : ok..wait lng.

my father who was on his deep sleep during that time woke up...

NANAY: tatay..aalis lng kame ni leli..magpapaconfine daw cya. Samahan ko lng to saglit dun.
AKO : babay! =)

Next scene was already there in DivineGrace. Ive told my mom to go back home kase kaya ko nmn..im not even bedridden.So pasok nko sa hospital...

To make that scene short...ive had again another procedure just to make sure that i am having dengue and UTI. So the so-called procedure went on and heard one of the nurse in blue uniform yelled and called the doctors attention.

NURSE : DOC! POSITIVE SA DENGUE.
AKO : hala,,naku..

after a few minutes again...

NURSE1 : mam, dextrose po muna tayo ha..and a ter ilang minutes aakyat n nmen kayo sa taas..
AKO: Masaket ba yan?
NURSE2 : (ume-epaL) OO MASAKET! (hightone)
AKO : (pabulong) Ay! kabog!hehehe
NURSE : eh mam, wala po ba kayong kasama ngyong gabi? wala po kayong bantay?
AKO : wala eh..pinauwe ko na..=)
NURSE : ha?! ah ok..


So there...it was really not in my plan to be there in the hospital, its just that ive had this txt conversation with Jhe before Nanay went home that night. She's asking mycondition and told stories of her sister who got dengue twice. She have also told me to take it seriously because platelet counts really go down fast and doctors should have monitor those , otherwise, i should have undergo blood transfusion. And with that, ive got feared for myself and also for my life! Its like a sense of urgency took my mind and decide ...to go OR not to go. heheheh..

I was devirginized...its really my first time to got confined and had Dextrose. 'Tho mixed feeling..it was nice and it felt so good. hehe.

♪♪ MyFather'sBandmates ♫

AFTER THE WHOLE DAY THERAPY SESSION ON MY TRAINING SCHOOL YESTERDAY, IVE HURRIEDLY WENT HOME SO I COULD CATCH AT LEAST 3-4HOURS OF ENOUGH SLEEP BEFORE GOING TO WORK AT NIGHT.
SO EXHAUSTED THAT I WAS EXPECTING A VERY SERENE PLACE AROUND MY ROOM, AND OUR HOUSE AS WELL...A COMFY BLANKET AND BED,NO LOUD RADIOs FROM NEIGHBORHOOD, A NICE WEATHER..NO DISTURBANCE!

THATs WHAT I'VE ANTICIPATED...=)

MY FATHERs LONG TIME FRIENDS FROM HIS COMBO DAYS VISITED HIM THAT DAY.
I WAS GLAD TO SEE HIM WITH THEM, ITS BEEN A LONG TIME THOUGH'.
THEIR LAST REUNION WAS 1998 . A DECADE AGO AND NOW I AM SEEING THEM AGAIN. IT FEELS GOOD TO RECOLLECT THOSE DAYS ESPECIALLY IF YOU'RE WITH FRIENDS,and IN MY FATHERs CASE, REMINISCIN THOSE BANDA DAYS COULD BRING THEIR YOUTH BACK.
OPPOSITE OF WHAT IVE THOUGHT OF, ,IVE THOUGHT THAT I COULD SLEEP AS I WOULD REACHED OUR HOUSE...I'VE PICKED MY CAMERA, AND TOOK SOME PICS!
A SIMPLE KEEPSAKE ON MY PART, IF NOT OF HIM, SINCE HIS INTEREST WAS NOT ONTO CAPTURING MUSHY MOMENTS LIKE THIS. SINCE AFTER SEEING THEM MADE MY EMOTIONS SO ELATED, NO MORE YAWNS.,,
I WENT ON-LINE CHECK MY ACCOUNTS and TOOK A PEEKED AND PEEPED ON WHAT THEY'VE TALKING ABOUT, IVE HEARD THEIR LAUGHTERS, TEASING EACH OTHER. IVE HEARD THEY WILL BE HAVING A GET-TOGETHER AGAIN ON DEC.04..((TAY SAMA AKO!! PITSUR PITSUR LANG AKO!HEHE)) =))

ITS NICE AND IT FELT SO GOOOOD! =)

I am Me! =)

I COULD BE EXTREMELY HAPPY AND TALKATIVE BUT I COULD BE CATATONIC FOR AN HOUR.
if you've made me disappointed, you've made a mark and i hardly forget.
I AM NOT A COPYCAT OF ANYONE, I AM LIVING MY OWN LIFE AND I REALLY HATED TO BE ASSOCIATED.
i know what i am doing and i rarely ask for advise. If i did, well maybe i am just running out of answers and maybe desperate.
I AM ANXIOUS FOR ANY KIND OF SEPARATION, EVEN IF SOMETIMES IT DONT CONCERNED ME. I JUST HATE A THOUGHT OF IT.
im a christian and I am still trying to be a good one yet a part of me says I should be a lame believer.
I HARDLY FORGET MEMORIES!
ive never aimed High,neither aspire for Power.They've expected me to have it. Just a bit of success will do!
I WANNA DIE OF NO PAIN AT THE AGE OF 60. AT LEAST BEFORE 60, I'D BE GONE ON THIS EARTH.
sometimes, i like it when people ask for my help, and i'll be disappointed if i dont have any means of doing so.
I HATE TO SEE HELPLESS PEOPLE.
i like it too, when people talks about emotions and points of view.
I LIKE GUYS WHO STIMULATES AND TICKLES MY IDLE MIND. I LIKE BEFRIENDING THEM. ;)
i like chasing people i admire yet easily get off when tired.
SOMETIMES, I PLAYED AND APPEARED DUMB JUST TO LET OTHERS FEEL THAT THEY'RE SMART.
(oh ! i forgot, that sometimes i really am Dumb! so when you noticed it,please dont dare to talk to me..my mind is wandering, maybe! and on Astral State! hehehe)
i like seeing people so delighted and confused, im so entertain seeing facial expressions!=)
I DONT LIKE GRUMPY PEOPLE, THEY MADE ME STOOD IN ONE CORNER AND DONT TALK.

Nobody would care even myself wont bother
for someone like you,don’t know anything but yourself.
If judging others would give you excruciationg happiness
then go, Run fast!
enough for me to hear those worlds for I know ,
people OF your kind would indulge into nonsensical stuffs ..and would earn nothing!

IF FOR YOU, I AM NOT NORMAL,
THEN, CALL ME A MADWOMAN!=)