S KE P T I C I S M

John Lennon have said that..

“God is a concept..”

Is it the same notion the catholic pope asserted that..

“Heaven is a state of mind..” ?

I dont know..

all i know is that upon my birth ..

God exists!

As early as i have my awareness of going to church.,

Supreme Being was there.

Deep within my thoughts and understanding..

Heaven was up there..

But never i imagined to be there for i know that i’ll never belong..

If hell is true..the conventional torture and sea of fire,

Much more i dont belong for i know that once in my life..i do good!

but i am not perfect as my God wants me to be..

Sometimes..

I thought of living without heaven and hell,

Even principles.

Maybe, living simply in this world till your life ends.

Enjoy the resources and not abused it..

No more pride and greed.

Living with positivity without self desires.

If there’s another earth out there?

or If there’s another life after death?

i dont know..

never i thought of having another life after dying.

I’ll just accept that its a perpetual departure.

To let go off the senses..

Death is infinity.

if skepticism is a sin..

then i’ve sinned!

SINGLE and READY TO MINGLE

Honestly..it pisses me off when some one asks me about marriage stuff or getting-married. Its not that I dont have anything for it to be answered. Its just that…
I don’t want to talk about it. Neither I planned it nor I’ve got prepared for that day. It just keeps me w0nder, do these people find any other questions? Its so annoying…it seems that I have to be hurry…

i feel so pressured tho’ and I hate that!

I don’t know…

They say that I should have to, and give me these reasons :

1. so there would be people who will take care of me when I get old.

2. its fulfilling to be a mom!

3. lelay, if you don’t get married, you’ll not realize it as of now,, and regret it after all.

…AND THEN WHAT? Will I push myself to get married? (eh wala ngang boypren?!hahahaha)

Seriously…as I recall my childhood. Never I dreamed of walking on a red carpeted aisle while my groom awaits me on exchanging ‘I do’s’…never I dare to dreamed! Relatives have said that “naku si aleli,magmmadre yan! Mana yan sa lola nya.taong simbahan”.

Yes, I actively participated on church activities even when I was young BUT im not wearing a Halo! What I mean..is…maybe..i really am a destined maiden.

A single woman, maybe by choice coz I really don’t have a choice!! Hahahahaha…

Anyway… im not closing any doors here…i might saying it just now, i may still be an easy-go-lucky woman around…and am enjoying my singlehood, being with friends and family! Anyway..im only 26 turning 27..not that old, right?!who knows?!

ALL I WANT ARE THESE :(optional)

1. if giving a chance…I will marry someone who is a friend, a good conversationalist because when we get old I know, all we have to do is talk,,talk,,and talk. No more romantic lust, only reminiscing the years passed by. We should have same interest and has a sense of humor. He may not be a very good looking person BUT someone who knows how to handle and carry himself as well..How i wish i could meet a man same as kikobrew.(i’ve never done this but myguiltypleasure now is to read his blogs,im jealous with her gf ,swerte! i really envied this couple sooo much!).Tas sa photos nya..inisketch ko cya..check it out!! hwooohooo!!click here >>http://profiles.friendster.com/44325224
2. if not give a chance to have a family, I’ll adapt a child because never I’ve planned to conceive a child. I don’t know… I can’t explain…it’s not selfishness tho’. Im just thinking my child’s welfare if I’ll bring him out of the earth. The earth is not a good shelter for him, it doesn’t even offer a good environment nowadays. I feared of not giving him a good education, good health..etc.So better I’ll adapt a child who was already forsaken by their immediate family. Para bawas na din sa populasyon.hehe
3. Or…I’ll commit myself to a friend who is willing to commit himself/herself to me. We’ll just live, rent a house, go out, share secrets/opinions just like what a common friends do. (just like living in a BigBrother house,simply,just like that!)For me…it’s the same as having a family of my own. If both of us got old. We could take good care of each other!

Anyway…I’ll end this…who knows,right?! =)

JOHN LENNON-MAY PANG LOST WEEKEND =)

UPON KNOWING THE LOVESTORY OF MAY PANG AND JOHN LENNON, IVE DISCREETLY YEARN TO HAVE THAT KIND-OF-STORY ON MY OWN. TO HAVE IT WITH SOMEONE THAT I COULD CALL.. JOHNLENNON! ALTHOUGH MAY PANG EXISTED DURING DWINDLING BUT CLIMACTIC EPISODE OF ONO-JOHN RELATIONSHIP,

I COULD STILL SAY THAT ‘THEM’ WAS SWEETER THAN WHAT YOKO AND JOHN's HAD. (NOT TO MENTION THAT I REALLY DON’T LIKE YOKO FOR JOHN UNTIL NOW AM STILL FIGURING OUT WHY)

WHY DID I SAY SWEETER? I DON’T KNOW..MAYBE..’THEM’ APPEARED UNEXPECTEDLY AND ALTHOUGH IT LASTED FOR A YEAR AND A HALF, THEIR STORY, COULD BE CONSIDERED SINCERE.

WELL, WITH THIS, AM JUST SHARING MY PERSPECTIVE OF A SO CALLLED SINCERE AND PERFECT RELATIONSHIP.

ALSO, IVE FOUND EXCITEMENT UNTO THEIR SO-CALLED ”LOST WEEKEND”

W H A T E V E R !

AM JUST SO EXCITED ON RECEIVING MY VERY OWN COPY OF THIS BOOK .

THIS BOOK RELEASED JUST LAST YEAR . SO CAN'T WAIT!

HOWs YOUR BOSS!=)

After ive graduated from college, I’ve started and really tried to penetrate the Corporate World, its been a dream come true for me during those days, dealing with different people, having my own desk, and became one of those Office staff! =)

Part of being one of those was having your so-called ‘’hard-to-reach-BUT-you-have-to-deal-with-them-everyday’’ boss. Those that will scold at you early in the morning upon seating on your desk, asked you to do this and do that, then after yelling at you and letting your esteem to go way, way down below sea level, they’re also the one who lift it up back and give their superb, inspirational and uplifting advise based on their experienced.

Here are some of those advise I’ve learned (oh really!? Did I learn something from them? Believe it or not, I’ve took those even with my eyes closed. In Fairness, i would say..i've really learned from them.hehe )

BOSS(OJT)“Puro ka rock music..nu ba yan! di bali pagtanda mo llipas din yan!”

ME : Tlga?! sana nga..I'm 27 years old na di pa din lumilipas,,di na nga lang nkakanuod ng gig..pero mam ng iba ako ng genre..ethnic music nmn! lilipas din ba to??hehe

Boss#1 :“KAYA KA NGA TINUTURUAN EH PARA MATUTO”

ME : Hmmm, huweyt..since this is myblog, I’ll tell you what happened here. Have you experienced "information overload”?

Eh dko na carry eh..salita pa ng salita…sabe ko "Mam di ko napo maabsorb!" Go pa din siya, tas ambilis bilis, eh buti ba kung ako lang ang nagrereklamo eh madame pa la kame. I’ve felt nauseatic during that time, nkkulangan nko ng carbon dioxide..konti nlng hihimatayin nko..ayaw pa din tumigil..kaya the next day..back to zero! Hinayaan ko na lang magsermon. Hehe=)

Boss#2 “WALA NA AKONG NARINIG SA YO KUNDI TROPA TROPA..DUMIRETSO KA NG BAHAY..TIME WILL COME WHEN YOU GET OLD, MAWAWALA LAHAT SILA SAYO..MAKAKALIMUTAN KA DIN NILA!

ME: Bali, uwian n kase nun, last day na kase, Friday. So, tendency tanungan ng mga pupuntahan, eh hindi naman ako ma-gimik na tao, so un ang nabanggit ko sa opismeyt ko na sa hindi inaasahan eh narinig ng Boss ko. Huwell… what can I say…”Based on experience ba yan mam?! Iniwan siguro ng mga kaibigan nya! Si mam, bitterness!: hehe =)

Boss#3 “TAO KO CYA,,I KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY STAFF, I KNOW HOW TO DISCIPLINE HER”

ME : Sabe ko nga Alam mo eh, di nmn ako tumututol. Pero anyway, ako ang sangkot dito, me palpak lang akong ginawang report tas medyo ayun napagalitan, nasigawan.!Solid e! Tas me mga taong nagreact..tas ayun..ayan ung sinagot nya. Sabe na eh hwag na kayo magreact..alm nya ginagawa nya… harinawa! Tiwala lang...hehe

Boss#3 (ulit) “IN THIS TYPE OF INDUSTRY, YOU SHOULD KNOW HOW TO PLAY with POLITICS and YOU SHOULD ALSO have to KNOW HOW TO SEPARATE YOUR EMOTIONS FROM WORK. WELL GIRLS..YOU SHOULD HAVE TO,,IF YOU WANT TO GO HIGHER FROM YOUR POST.”

ME : Hmmm..in fairness itong boss ko na ito eh BOSS na maituturing tlg, may sense nmn tong sinabe nya kumbaga base lang siguro sa realidad na nangyayare sa corporate world. Pero wala eh,,dko kaya..pumasok lang sa tenga ko tas lumabas din sa kabila. I don’t have such hunger for success, for as long as I have a work, and im earning money..im okay! Kaya cguro huweto,,nanatiling Staff pa din ngyon..hehehe (Actually sobrang laid-back lang at carefree kaya nanatiling staff) hehehe.

SIGH! Leader vs. Boss is another Topic to discuss. Huwell..moments with them just passed through this idle mind. Boss’s will always be Boss.

They really do know what to do! You just have to follow OR else you’ll be evicted!