Introspection on Relationships (10 years ago)

Honestly..it pisses me off when some one asks me about marriage stuff or getting-married. It is not that I don't have any answer to these. Its just that I don’t want to talk about it. Neither I planned it nor I’ve got prepared for that day. It just keeps me wonder... do these people find any other questions? It's so annoying…it seems that I have to be hurry…I feel so pressured tho’ and I hate that!

Panorama Festival 2006

They say that I should have to get married, and give me these reasons :

1. So there would be people who will take care of me when I get old.

2. It's fulfilling to be a mom!

3. "Lelay, if you don’t get married, you’ll not realize it as of now, and regret it after all" AND THEN WHAT? Will I push myself to get married? (eh wala ngang boypren?!hahahaha)

Seriously…as I recall my childhood. Never I dreamed of walking on a red carpeted aisle while my groom awaits me on exchanging ‘I do’s’…never I dare to dreamed! Relatives have said that “naku si aleli,magmmadre yan! Mana yan sa lola nya.taong simbahan”.Yes, I actively participated on church activities even when I was young BUT please I am not wearing a Halo! What I mean is..maybe I really am a destined maiden. A single woman, maybe by choice because I really don’t have a choice!! Hahahahaha

Anyway… im not closing any doors here… I might saying it just now, I may still be an easy-go-lucky woman around…and am enjoying my singlehood, being with friends and family! Anyway..Im only 26 turning 27..not that old, right?!who knows?

ALL I WANT ARE THESE, IF GIVEN A CHANCE :

1. I will marry someone who is a friend, a good conversationalist because when we get old I know, all we have to do is talk,,talk,,and talk. No more romantic lust, only reminiscing the years passed by. We should have same interest and has a sense of humor. He may not be a very good looking person BUT someone who knows how to handle and carry himself as well..How i wish i could meet a man same as Francis Reyes "kikobrew"(i’ve never done this but myguiltypleasure now is to read his blogs,im jealous with her gf ,swerte! i really envied this couple sooo much!). Tas sa photos nya..inisketch ko cya..check it out!! hwooohooo!!

2. if not give a chance to have a family, I’ll adapt a child because never I’ve planned to conceive a child. I don’t know… I can’t explain…it’s not selfishness tho’. Im just thinking my child’s welfare if I’ll bring him out of the earth. The earth is not a good shelter for him, it doesn’t even offer a good environment nowadays. I feared of not giving him a good education, good health..etc.So better I’ll adapt a child who was already forsaken by their immediate family. Para bawas na din sa populasyon.hehe

3. Or…I’ll commit myself to a friend who is willing to commit himself/herself to me. We’ll just live, rent a house, go out, share secrets/opinions just like what a common friends do.(just like living in a BigBrother house,simply,just like that!)For me…it’s the same as having a family of my own. If both of us got old. We could take good care of each other!

Anyway…I’ll end this…who knows,right?! =)

Motherhood

Motherhood , in my own perspective is something that I didn't dream of . As a matter of fact , I have treated this previously , as a penance . I was one of those who resisted even a thought of it. I was one of those laid back single woman who ask herself "Why me?!" . Didn't I know that this will happened. I wasn't dreaming of becoming a mother. However, some circumstances brought me to this.

TANGKAAN, PADRE BURGOS ,SOUTHERN LEYTE

I was happy, satisfied and satiable living on my own. Although, I know that I am okay, there's something that is lacking. It's empty. Dull. It's like , staring in a house realizing that it's not a home.

Apparently, experiencing this gave me an added motivation and unexplained purpose that made me live my life more. And mine by experience, was a learned skill that I have embraced after. Some woman take it as a privilege but mine is a reward. An added bonus in my life. I have treated it as a surprise gift and I am thankful that I've received, fully embracing being one! Di kaya ako mahilig sa bata. Pero ngayon , any stories about a child made me cry. Malungkot man un o masaya. hehe . That's how I became sensitive and vulnerable on hearing child stories. It has a significant impact within.

STRAWBERRY FARM , BAGUIO

You might hear that , "Motherhood is tough". This cliche is true and mommies will not deny . However, there is a pause . A short pause that separates the initial answer to conclusion. Her response doesn't ends on "tough" but "worth it" . You may hear stories and cries and woes but , it manifests determination and strength. After a day or two... you may see them happy and smiling again.

Because being a mom , for me , is a combination of distress and euphoria. It's immensely tough, you have to endure the pain and anxiety but we women are capable. Kinakaya naten , hindi dahil napipilitan pero kaya talaga e or maybe rearing a child is with us by nature. Built-in to every woman out there. Iba yung fulfillment!

Sweet Solutions Cafe , The District Mall, Cavite

There is one thing I renounce on experiencing this journey and I really am having a hard time practicing and disciplining myself. It's financial management and that is another story that will allot another space on my blog! :)

Waiting Shed

May kkwento lang ako.Pauwe ako galing sa tropa..naghihintay ako ng sasakyan sa waiting shed. Tapos may dumating na babae , maluha-luha siya tapos bubulong-bulong dun sa shed.Tipong naiiinis.Ewan ko kung kkilala nya ung matandang cigarette vendor na nasa gilid ng shed kase nag uusap sila eh. Narinig ko nlng sabe nung mama dun sa babae...

CIGARETTE VENDOR : Kaaway mo na naman tatay mo?

BABAE : Oo,nakakainis..nilayasan ko nga eh!

CIGARETTE VENDOR : Naku,ganyan talaga. May edad na din tatay mo. Ineng, tiis lang..mahirap mawalan ng magulang, ako nga eh..sa tanda kong ito..nakakahiya mang sabihin ngayon ko lng naintindihan na mahirap mawalan ng magulang

BABAE : (tahimik lang..maluha luha pa din)

Ako..sumakay nako ng bus..diko kinaya..ang bigat sa pakiramdam!

MyPrayer

I found this writing on my ''freewriting folder''in the office and got an urge of blogging this. I love the feeling of reading stuffs like this! Its like retrieving an emotion. It makes me feel like im on it again! :)

''May you bring not my parents into sickness and sadness, they may not know but they're part of mylife. May you help them when they're in sorrow. May you not let them feel that i dont love them.

..and to this little angel in my womb, may you inspire me in every thing that i will do and help me not feel hard and negative within this 9motnhs of carrying you here. You've changed mylife and im loving you now. May you be always in good health until you come out.

May you always help me on achieving peace and establish a clear state of mind to face any challenges ahead. May you help me to keep my faith on you for i believe in Your existence.

Another prayer to a special firend, just in case we've parted our awys, make it easier for both of us. Letting us to wear a smile and not sheda single tear. ''

--LeLaY ( no date , i guess some time in 2011 )

ALELI VIDA on GoogLe search Tab

I already have 15mins left,before i get off from here,so to waste my idLe time, i've typed myname on Google tab search,nothing important at all, just wanna see what are the links that would appear in relation with it.=)

So, aside on my personal web accounts, these links above populates.

Yun lng.. kakatuwa! 8:00am na..i am leaving na...poof! =)

AKO MISMO! oo ako nga! =)

I am not a registered voter..oops! i am pala! ive registerd last campaign,yung batch nina Fernando Poe. Ive registered for some reasons. Pero wala sa loob kong bumoto. Kung anu man ang nangyare sa registered name ko, gamitin man nila sa pandadaya, wala nkong pakielam.Wala tlg..until now. Sadyang Passive. =)

"Gaga! bat dka bboto! Its Right Of Suffrage! Sayang ang boto mo..blah blah blah.."
uy kung maka-gaga ka naman..hehehe =))

Oh well..teka po..paki spell at pkitagalog ung S-U-F-F-R-A-G-E? Hwoooosh..yung totoo lang..cge na yun totoo???Yung iba ginagamet eto, di nmn alm meaning!Aminin! Mabago lng ang termino, malalim kase,mganda sa pandinig eh. Bat bko nangingielam?! Eh kase nmn..as far as i know having that Right of Suffrage, means i am free and could choose not to vote too. Sakop iyon ng Right na iyan na nabanggit.

Anu bang repercussions ng di ko pagboto ngyon?

Di nman kase ako mapolitikang tao, kahit ang mga magulang ko eh updated sa mga bagaybagay na yan..palibhasa'y nagttrabaho sa gobyerno, kahit sa anung aspeto , di ako mapulitika. hehehe. Namumuha'y ako ng naayon sa available resources.AT minsa'y hindi na nghahangad ng iba. =)
Sabe..wala daw akogn karapatang magreklamo sa loob ng anim na taon dahil di ako bumoto. OO NAMAN! di ako mgrereklamo, di nyo ko matatagpuan sa kalsadang mgwewelga o mghhungerstrike at sasabihing ''ITAAS ANG SWELDO'' o "IBABA ANG BUWIS". Hindi tlg..at lalong hindi ako mghahangad ng mataas na sweldo kase mas mataas ang sweLdo, mas mataas ang buwis! Magiging mabuting mamamayan muna ako sa paraang alm ko.

Pero eto lng ...AKO MISMO sa ssunod na eleksyon, boboto ng mainam! Ayoko lng tlg nitong lumipas na election. Di ko feel. Dumami ang pasikat. Kase bago ang sistema.At hindi ko din nmn nasubaybayan yung mga tumakbong kandidato. Wala tlg akong alm..nkinig lmang ako ng mga debate..pero di un sapat para saken!

hehe..ang totoo am just defending myself, against my other self and answer the question why i did not participate on the last election. Tipong nagrationalize n nmn ako..hehe. HuweLL..That's my fave defense mechanism!


O yun lng..na petiks n nmn ako sa work. Tapos an nag lunchbreak ko..O cya work mode ulit .=)

I am Me! =)

I COULD BE EXTREMELY HAPPY AND TALKATIVE BUT I COULD BE CATATONIC FOR AN HOUR.
if you've made me disappointed, you've made a mark and i hardly forget.
I AM NOT A COPYCAT OF ANYONE, I AM LIVING MY OWN LIFE AND I REALLY HATED TO BE ASSOCIATED.
i know what i am doing and i rarely ask for advise. If i did, well maybe i am just running out of answers and maybe desperate.
I AM ANXIOUS FOR ANY KIND OF SEPARATION, EVEN IF SOMETIMES IT DONT CONCERNED ME. I JUST HATE A THOUGHT OF IT.
im a christian and I am still trying to be a good one yet a part of me says I should be a lame believer.
I HARDLY FORGET MEMORIES!
ive never aimed High,neither aspire for Power.They've expected me to have it. Just a bit of success will do!
I WANNA DIE OF NO PAIN AT THE AGE OF 60. AT LEAST BEFORE 60, I'D BE GONE ON THIS EARTH.
sometimes, i like it when people ask for my help, and i'll be disappointed if i dont have any means of doing so.
I HATE TO SEE HELPLESS PEOPLE.
i like it too, when people talks about emotions and points of view.
I LIKE GUYS WHO STIMULATES AND TICKLES MY IDLE MIND. I LIKE BEFRIENDING THEM. ;)
i like chasing people i admire yet easily get off when tired.
SOMETIMES, I PLAYED AND APPEARED DUMB JUST TO LET OTHERS FEEL THAT THEY'RE SMART.
(oh ! i forgot, that sometimes i really am Dumb! so when you noticed it,please dont dare to talk to me..my mind is wandering, maybe! and on Astral State! hehehe)
i like seeing people so delighted and confused, im so entertain seeing facial expressions!=)
I DONT LIKE GRUMPY PEOPLE, THEY MADE ME STOOD IN ONE CORNER AND DONT TALK.

Nobody would care even myself wont bother
for someone like you,don’t know anything but yourself.
If judging others would give you excruciationg happiness
then go, Run fast!
enough for me to hear those worlds for I know ,
people OF your kind would indulge into nonsensical stuffs ..and would earn nothing!

IF FOR YOU, I AM NOT NORMAL,
THEN, CALL ME A MADWOMAN!=)

WOMAN

IM AN OUTLET,AN ECHO THAT KEEPS ON LINGERING,
JUST LIKE A PAIL WHERE THE WATER FROM THE FAUCET POURS,
A MAT , WHERE YOU WIPE DOWN YOUR FEET,
A DROP OF RAIN THAT FEEDS DURING DROUGHT,
A RELIEF FOR A SUDDEN THIRST,
A REMEDY FOR THAT ITCHINESS.

ITS AN INFLICTED DISTRESS…
A SWEEET AND PLEASING ONE THAT MARKED THOSE DAYS!
SO SWEET THAT EVEN FOR A WHILE AM HOLDING YOUR MIND

YOU'VE MADE ME A WOMAN!
THANK YOU!

BUTOTOY

Si butotoy..

9years na cya samen eh.So..matanda naba yun para sa isang
normal na askal?

Matanda na cya so anticipated ko na ang kanyang nalalapit o
paparating na pagyao..

Ok n yung expected ko na kesa Makita nlng namen cyang
nakabulagta at di ko malaman ang aking magging emosyon pag nngyare un ng
biglaan. Kagaya ng nngyare ke TUKNENENG,(naunang aso nmen ke
butotoy),papakainin n nmen cya nun eh..ng makita ng kptd ko na nakabulagta nlng
cya dun.Di nmen alm kng bakit..teorya ng tatay ko..inatake! 4years din cya
samen..

Kaya hweto,,nagssulat ako ng tungkol ke BUTOTOY.

Talented yang aso namen,tawag ko dyn
SPIDERDOG,kase..Inaaakyat nya ung gate nmen. .aNg tindi ng adrenaline rush! Dati nga, busyng busy kme kkpanuod ng
TV eh ngulat nlng kme ng tinawag kme ng kapit bahay kase si butotoy daw ay nakabigti..
Nahulog cya from tuktok ng gate,tas naka-hang lang cya..buti nlng ung paa nya
nakatapak sa sanga ng maliit nmeng FiveFingers n halaman.Ayun,kakawagkawag
cya..buti nlng naagapan pa! Second life nya na sigurong maituturing yon! =)

Tas pag ngggitara ako sa labas ng bhay nmen,nsa
tabi ko lng cya..parang isa sa audience. Tas mayamaya konti,tutulugan ako,,Pag si tatay nmn eh nag-Harmonica,tas mataas
ugn tono..mag aawooooooo cya…so parang kumakanta lang…kung anu ung taas ng tono..ppantayan nya un!Yung mga kapitbahay namen nagpapanic na kase nag aawooooo cya,akla nila me mamatay..etc..hehehehe…di nila alm..singer lang tlg si butotoy!=)

At kng makikita nyo sa pic..kinunan ko
cya, alm nyang nasa likod nya ko…pero parang ngpproject cya! At parang sinasabe
nyang..”CGE SHOT LNG NG SHOT!”…hehehe =)

Sa sobrang tanda nya…mahina na din cya kumaen..tas me hika
na den cya..ubo cya ng ubo..tas susuka cya..tas didilaan nya..(yuck!)

Ganunpaman,maasahan namen ang aso n yan kaya para mkpagprepare
n din kme sa nalalapit nyang paglisan eh minabuti nmeng mag alaga n ng ibang
tuta na pinangalanan nmeng OKRAY-OKRAY. (ang asong me malaporselanang mga
garapata!)..Actually dalawa sila ,,hiningi lng sila..ung isa si ANACLETO,kaso
si anacleto pinamigay na kase bihirang kumahol..pangit nmn un,db?!

Ayun,hnggng ngyn nasa amin pa din si Butotoy..inaantay nlng
nmen cyang mabawian ng buhay..sana

matagalan pa..

sana

….(sigh!)

EuLoGy

His death,

Gives me time to reflect,

To assess, to meditate.

How far will i go for this faith?

Have i served Him well?

Can i speak out for what i believed in?

Will i reach the same end?!

He did… till his last breath.

How could people take his life just for principle?

Isn't that their only way of showing prowess to nation?

Is that their last resort?

A gunshot?

Did they prove something after all?

A success on their part!

Silly...Machismo.

Desperate and pity those people who lived and longed for that damn principle.

They're living voraciously.

Greed is their god!

An inverted thumb.

We never pray for his soul.

But we pray for the soul of those who did that to him.

It’s such a sorrow that fighting for principle will reach this gruesome end!

Then, what’s next?

Who's next?

ROUNDTRIP!=)

Wala lng..

i just loooove longbus trip kahit traffic.

Wyl traffic..habang ang mga tao ay nababagot sa pag usad ng bus.. ako naman..

nagkakaron ng "sacred idleness" within me..

nakakapag isip… .

nakkapagasessed.

Habang nakatulala..

Nagiisip ng kung anu ano.. minsan naiiyak,, minsan nmn.. palihim na natatawang mag isa..=)

kaya if i have tym at kung may magyaya.. .. naku,,round trip lang.. ok nko..=)

"roundtrip" tawag nmen ng tropang hayskul kapag trip nameng magbyahe..baba ng terminal tas sakay ulit pabalik. ganun lng.. . palipas oras..=)

Gawain nmen nung hayskul.. kakamiss…=)

Eksena

My heart really breaks when im seeing old people along the streets begging for alms and do anything just to earn money.

I am so upset seeing them buying and selling junks and collecting bottles just to have a meal on their table, just to survive on a certain day! Some I’ve noticed became ‘barker’,,pedicab driver, cigarette vendor and some are just standing and spending time on the streets.

Maybe some of those elders don’t deserve that kind of living,even anticipated that lifestyle, and that hurts a lot!

It’s even a distressing scene where you can find them sitting on the corner along the streets,staring on nothing. Teary eyed. ..Helpless....

I am wonderin’ where are their love ones? Do their love ones knows their whereabouts? How about their children?

Their children, that supposed to take care of them now... now that they’re old. It’s a sad reality where kids whom their parents once sacrificed their lives will eventually leave and create a family of their own leaving their parents alone ..again!

A thought of a teleserye made me cry where a typical love story of lovers surpassed the hardships of marriage and having a family that made them utter these words:

“Sa simula, tayo lng namang dalawa tlg..hanggang sa huli..tayo pa ding dalawa..”

It’s indeed, a not so pleasing reality for me and it’s a part of being a human. It’s really acceptable in our society and it really happens. It’s just so sad that in the end, it seems that no one loves them anymore...afterall!

Well, life goes on!

INSTAMATIC KARMA

AT LONG LAST..I ALREADY HAVE THIS BOOK.

IVE WAITED FOR THIS ,MONTHS AGO AND NOW I AM HOLDING AND DONE READING THIS.

ACTUALLY THE ONLY THING IN MY MiND WAS TO HAVE THIS BOOK SHIPPED

AND ORDER VIA AMAZON.COM.

SINCE IT WOULD BE CHEAPER IF IT WOULD BE ORDERED AND SHIPPED IN U.S ,

however, IVE JUST ASKED A FRIEND TO HAVE THIS AS A PASALUBONG!! (yipeeee,,thanks wilson!) CLICK THIS > JOHN AND MAY PANG LOST WEEKEND

AND WHAT MADE ME WANT THIS BOOK?

WELL, ASIDE THE FACT THAT ITS ALL ABOUT JOHN?

IVE ALSO WANT TO TAKE A PEEK ON HOW JOHN AND MAY LOVE AFFAIR HAPPENED,,

AND TO KNOW MORE ABOUT THAT SO CALLED --LOST WEEKEND!=)

MY FAVORITE TRYCYCLE DRIVER..=)

PRESENTING MY FAVORITE TRYCYCLE DRIVER!! HEHEHEEHE =)

This pic was shot..of course, on his tryck on my way home.
Unaware of what is happening, he's kinda annoyed and uncomfortable (i guess..),
while repeated flashing lights covered the 10min ride on his trycycle. ((witch Laugh)) =D

...and what makes him speciaL?? Well.. ITS HIS HAIR!! i really like his hair, the effortless dread-styled-hair! ;)

MY OPEN LETTER!=)

tago bilis...dyahe!! hahahahahaha


i am clueLess of this sudden change. Abruptly you've eased this dullness i am feeling.

how can i grab again those eyes that solely was with me? how can i get back the attention you have patiently for me? it's just a start of questioning myself of having again this so called my-perpetual-routine-of-love.

you've chased me and now...am chasing you!

just let it hang and i'll keep on following you.Don't mind me mydear. i just love the sight of seeing you walking, as if you dont see me looking. Don't look back! It's a gentle way of saying i-like-you-no-more! Just passed me by and let me desire the thought of not having you around for i know that, if i'll make a certain move, you'll fall easily! Don't say any sweet flattering words, even touch me, that won't help! I love your way of making me jealous and making me realized that i am not worthy of your attention. Just keep me yearn for it! I wont ask anyone to give me a spear and stab me because you've certainly doing it!

You've tickled my idle mind!

I am in-love probably in the wrong way. All i know is that, you've made me want you more! I won't suppress it nor let defenses take over. I am liking you in my own special way because i know it's impossible to have you. Intensely i desire you, just don't reciprocate, let it hang and let it pass!

I am used to it and i am a self confessed imposer of pain and pleasure!

See you around...Mydear!=)

Anung KaLandian iTo?Emo ka?

Gusto ko ng tapusin ang oras.

Gusto ko ng lisanin ang kinalulugaran ko,

Para saken, isa itong problemang dapat tapusin.

Di tapat patagalin.

Dapat tuldukan.

Di ko na kaya at matagaltagal pa ang oras.

Pinipigilan dumaloy ang luhang kanina pa

Nanggingiming pumatak.

Kung bakit ba di kita pinigilan?

At di man lang nilapitan?

Hanggang sa nngyare na..

Huli na ang lahat.

Paglingon ko wla ka na

Di man lang ngpaalam

Di man lang ngsabe!

Hanggang saan ko kikimkimin ang iniwang damdamin.

Superhumane Effort!

Aaaaaaargh..hard to define yet its here again. So, what will
I do..

1. I just
   put my headset on then at least even for a while it eliminates the struggling emotion within.
   It would take 30mins then im ok na.
2. I’ll
   get mymug then pour some coffee tapos,,kelangan bittersweet.
3. I’ll
   do this,,freewriting. I’ll steal only fewminutes of my time writing here.
4. Tas work
   mode ulit. Work mode..workmode.till I get busy..eventually i’ve help
   myself to get my attention be diverted.

yeah,right..a superhumane effort just to
brush aside all
this. Para-paraan nlng!

I know…few months or weeks..days will passed then its all
over again. It will pass..manalig ako! Manalig akoooooooo!! Hahahaha =)

ISN'T LIFE STRANGE?! (well..am faLLen!)

AM A NOT-SO-LICENSED-PAPARAZZI!! BWAHAHAHA

Feelings were suppressed, minds complexity troubled my heart recalling back those moments..

Nobody would realize as people stare, as if they would mind..

Encapsulated thoughts need to be recognize,

and i would be happy..

just to be acknowledge..

and il be thankful..

if you care!

Questions

dahil sa puro survey ang laman ng bulletin sa FWENDSTER … hweto gumawa ako ng sarile ko..go with the flow!! hahahaha =)

1. kanino ka natutong magfwendsteriing thing? >> iknew this thing to Dylan,,sabe nya magregister daw ako..masaya daw,tho im not into this kind of online stuff before..
2. sino ang kaunaunahang nagtesti sayow?>>..cya din,, checkitout! Naging mgkachikahan kme nitong gerL nato for a month,ansaya!(ewankolangkungkilalanyapako..hehe) Simpleng babae plng cya nun,ngyn sikat n cya.
3. ano ang iyong matuturing na guilty-pleasure? >>recently,nung napatambay ako sa bahay ng 1month,naku..nannuod ako ng Wowowee tas isang lingo kong nging crush si Willie,,tas nnuod ako ng HanaKimi ung sa ch.2..tas crush ko si Dok. Tas dretso BigBrother ang pnnuod..hanepz..kapamilyangkapamilya..hahaha
4. any frustrations? >>OOmeron eh gusto kong libutin ng buong pilipinas,nd gusto kong mgexcel s mg interest ko: maggitra,magsult,mgpinta etc..tipong numpisahan ko lng Tas di ko nmn ntapos. Plage akong gnun,,msatisfy ko lng ung urges to learn...=)
5. anong gusto mong pag aralan? >> mg massage therapy..ggwin kong sideline.hahaha
6. kamusta ang self-esteem mo? >> so far..not good! Nagffalter..pabago bago.
7. inlab kaba ngyn? >> oo naman..in lab ako at soobrang attach sa mga interest ko..
8. anugn interest mo? >>makinig ng musikang gusto ko,,maggitara sa bahay,,magsulat ng kugn anung naiisip..lumaboy..tumambay..
9. single ka ba?bkit? >>oo,,am single by choice kase no choice..hahaha=D
10. gusto/ayaw mo mag asawa? Bkit ulit? >>as of now..malakeng ayoko!bkit? aba..mahirap ang buhay ngyn..sarile ko nga dko na kayang buhayin, magdadagdag pko..at pangit na ang mundo para tirhan….either il grow up alone or il adapt a child.=)
11. plastic ka ba? >>actually,im not! pero may mga instances na i have to..and you’ll never know ,even feel ,that i am…
12. i-love-myself-statement mo? (para sa mga mababa ang self confidence),,kung mataas na..hindi ito nababagay na tanong. >> IF I HAVE THIS STRONG WILL OVER SOMETHING..I COULD DO ITAND I COULD GET IT..byhooked or by crooked..harharhar..=)
13. pleaser ka ba? >> yup..specially if i like the person,.BUT kapag no response at all, I’ll not exert a superhumane effort anymore..hehe..i’ll ditch him/her off!! the nerve!!! hahahaha=D

ANGER MANAGEMENT PART1

people might misconstrued me as a person, mylifestyle or myprinciple..

i dont owe you a single word or even defend mypart, i 'll just let it be!

you’re not in myworld anyway..

hindi nmn karagdagan sa pagkatao ko ang mga reaksyong nakukuha ko o makukuha ko..ni pagtyagaang kausapin ang uri mo,,dko gagawin!

tara….kape nlng..=D