I am Me! =)

I COULD BE EXTREMELY HAPPY AND TALKATIVE BUT I COULD BE CATATONIC FOR AN HOUR.
if you've made me disappointed, you've made a mark and i hardly forget.
I AM NOT A COPYCAT OF ANYONE, I AM LIVING MY OWN LIFE AND I REALLY HATED TO BE ASSOCIATED.
i know what i am doing and i rarely ask for advise. If i did, well maybe i am just running out of answers and maybe desperate.
I AM ANXIOUS FOR ANY KIND OF SEPARATION, EVEN IF SOMETIMES IT DONT CONCERNED ME. I JUST HATE A THOUGHT OF IT.
im a christian and I am still trying to be a good one yet a part of me says I should be a lame believer.
I HARDLY FORGET MEMORIES!
ive never aimed High,neither aspire for Power.They've expected me to have it. Just a bit of success will do!
I WANNA DIE OF NO PAIN AT THE AGE OF 60. AT LEAST BEFORE 60, I'D BE GONE ON THIS EARTH.
sometimes, i like it when people ask for my help, and i'll be disappointed if i dont have any means of doing so.
I HATE TO SEE HELPLESS PEOPLE.
i like it too, when people talks about emotions and points of view.
I LIKE GUYS WHO STIMULATES AND TICKLES MY IDLE MIND. I LIKE BEFRIENDING THEM. ;)
i like chasing people i admire yet easily get off when tired.
SOMETIMES, I PLAYED AND APPEARED DUMB JUST TO LET OTHERS FEEL THAT THEY'RE SMART.
(oh ! i forgot, that sometimes i really am Dumb! so when you noticed it,please dont dare to talk to me..my mind is wandering, maybe! and on Astral State! hehehe)
i like seeing people so delighted and confused, im so entertain seeing facial expressions!=)
I DONT LIKE GRUMPY PEOPLE, THEY MADE ME STOOD IN ONE CORNER AND DONT TALK.

Nobody would care even myself wont bother
for someone like you,don’t know anything but yourself.
If judging others would give you excruciationg happiness
then go, Run fast!
enough for me to hear those worlds for I know ,
people OF your kind would indulge into nonsensical stuffs ..and would earn nothing!

IF FOR YOU, I AM NOT NORMAL,
THEN, CALL ME A MADWOMAN!=)

WOMAN

IM AN OUTLET,AN ECHO THAT KEEPS ON LINGERING,
JUST LIKE A PAIL WHERE THE WATER FROM THE FAUCET POURS,
A MAT , WHERE YOU WIPE DOWN YOUR FEET,
A DROP OF RAIN THAT FEEDS DURING DROUGHT,
A RELIEF FOR A SUDDEN THIRST,
A REMEDY FOR THAT ITCHINESS.

ITS AN INFLICTED DISTRESS…
A SWEEET AND PLEASING ONE THAT MARKED THOSE DAYS!
SO SWEET THAT EVEN FOR A WHILE AM HOLDING YOUR MIND

YOU'VE MADE ME A WOMAN!
THANK YOU!

S K E P T I C I S M

John Lennon have said that..
“God is a concept..”

Is it the same notion the catholic pope asserted that..

“Heaven is a state of mind..” ?

I dont know..
all i know is that upon my birth ..
God exists!
As early as i have my awareness of going to church.,
Supreme Being was there.

Deep within my thoughts and understanding..

Heaven was up there..
But never i imagined to be there for i know that i’ll never belong!


If hell is true..the conventional torture and sea of fire,'
Much more i dont belong for i know that once in my life..i do good!
but i am not perfect as my God wants me to be.

Sometimes..
I thought of living without heaven and hell,
Even principles.

Maybe, living simply in this world till your life ends.
Enjoy the resources and not abused it..
No more pride and greed.
Living with positivity without self desires.

If there’s another earth out there?
or If there’s another life after death?
i dont know..
never i thought of having another life after dying.

I’ll just accept that its a perpetual departure.
To let go off the senses..

Death is infinity.

if skepticism is a sin..
then i’ve sinned!

TAMUNENENG

Si TAMUNENENG..

Si tamuneneng ay dumating sa amin nuong taong 2005 at cya ay pang lima sa aming naging alagang aso.

In fairness naman sa kanya,mabait naman.

Yun nga lang, paranoid!

Dinala cya sa amin ng aking ama, sinakay cya sa motor tas nakalagay sa sako.

Tuwang tuwa kme nung dumating cya..

isa lang kase aso namin eh at un ay si Butototoy.

Yun na nga..isa lng napansin ko sa kanya..paglabas ko sa kanya sa sako.

Tahimik… ..

at ang kanyang mga ‘eyeballs’ ay paikot ikot sa paligid at di cya gumagalaw..

(nahilo ata cya sa byahe)

Tipong..nakikiramdam sa kanyang bagong ‘environment’.

Tumalilis cya ng takbo at pumunta sa isang sulok..ganun p din ang emote nya.

Paranoid!

Lumipas ang maraming araw, ganun pa din cya..

Nakakatakot tuloy..naisip ko bka maging ‘asong ulol’ cya.. .

mailap din kasi cya sa tao, tulo pa laway.

Pag nakakakita ng tao..ngtatago cya sa halamanan..tas di pa cya kumakahol..

Anung klase naman yun?!

Nagresearch ang aking tatay sa kung anung background meron ang asong si tamuneneng.

Napag alaman namin na lumaki pla cya sa tabing ilog..

Sabe nung ng alaga sa kanyang mga magulang, bihira lng daw kase ang tao sa area nila kaya cguro ganun cya..

Mailap!

Hanggang sa..napagdesisyunan ng buong pamilya na pakawalan at iligaw nlng si tamuneneng..

Mahirap pero..kailangan.

Mabigat sa damdamin dahil napamahal na din cya sa amin, kahit papano sa loob ng dalawang buwan.

Nagising na lang ako isang umaga na..

Wala na cya sa aming hardin..

Ayun..nailigaw na pla cya sa bukid ng aking ama,

Dating gawi..sinakay sa motor at nakalagay sa sako.

Nag iwan cya ng tali sa kanyang leeg bilang palatandaan.

Hindi naman daw humabol sa kanya.

Simple lang. tumakbo lng si tamuneneng sa bukid.

Lumipas ang tatlo..limang buwan..

Nang aksidenteng napadaan ang sinasakyan kong trycycle sa bukid na yun.

Short cut kase ang bukid na iyon sa aking pinagttrabahuhan.

NAKITA KO DUN SI TAMUNENENG..TUMATAKBO NA PARANG MASAYA NAMAN

AT NAGLALARONG MAG ISA.

May saltik tlg…at tipong may ‘imaginary friend ‘ pa ata.

Nalaman kong cya yon dahil sa tali sa kanyang leeg.

RAMDAM KO MASAYA CYA DUN. TAS MEDYO TUMABA PA CYA!!NAHIYANG CYA DUN!

At least kahit papanu..alam ko na okay cya..masaya kahit nabubuhay mag isa.. ..